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...♥..... I loved you
.....♥...... and I lost you
.......♥....... and I will never be the same...♥
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... Death Is Nothing At All ...
Death is nothing at all.
It does not count.
I have only slipped away into the next room.
Nothing has happened.
Everything remains exactly as it was.
I am I, and you are you,
and the old life that we lived so fondly together is untouched, unchanged.
Whatever we were to each other, that we are still.
Call me by the old familiar name.
Speak of me in the easy way which you always used.
Put no difference into your tone.
Wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow.
Laugh as we always laughed at the little jokes that we enjoyed together.
Play, smile, think of me, pray for me.
Let my name be ever the household word that it always was.
Let it be spoken without an effort, without the ghost of a shadow upon it.
Life means all that it ever meant.
It is the same as it ever was.
There is absolute and unbroken continuity.
What is this death but a negligible accident?
Why should I be out of mind because I am out of sight?
I am but waiting for you, for an interval,
somewhere very near,
just round the corner.
All is well.
Nothing is hurt; nothing is lost.
One brief moment and all will be as it was before.
How we shall laugh at the trouble of parting when we meet again!
~ Henry Scott-Holland
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"What we have once enjoyed
and deeply loved,
we can never lose.
For all that we love deeply
becomes a part of us."
~ Helen Keller
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I thought of you with love today,
but that is nothing new.
I thought about you yesterday,
and the day before that, too.
I think of you in silence,
...I often say your name,
But all I have is memories
and your picture in a frame.
Your memory is my keepsake,
with which I'll never part.
God has you in his keeping,
I have you in my heart.
I shed tears for what might have been,
a million times I've cried.
If love alone could have saved you,
you never would have died.
In life I loved you dearly,
in death I love you still,
In my heart you hold a place
no one could ever fill.
It broke my heart to lose you,
but you didn't go alone,
For part of me went with you,
the day God took you home.
~ Author Unknown
12.22.2016
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when you left...
a piece of my heart went with you...
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When you remember me, it means that you have carried something of who I am with you, that I have left some mark of who I am on who you are. It means that you can summon me back to your mind even though countless years and miles may stand between us. It means that if we meet again, you will know me. It means that even after I die, you can still see my face and hear my voice and speak to me in your heart. For as long as you remember me, I am never entirely lost.
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Some say love, it is a river
That drowns the tender reed.
Some say love, it is a razor
That leaves your soul to bleed.
Some say love, it is a hunger,
An endless aching need.
I say love, it is a flower,
And you it's only seed.
It's the heart, afraid of breaking,
That never learns to dance.
It's the dream, afraid of waking,
That never takes a chance.
It's the one who won't be taken,
Who cannot seem to give.
And the soul, afraid of dyin',
That never learns to live.
When the night has been too lonely,
And the road has been too long,
And you think that love is only
For the lucky and the strong,
Just remember in the winter
Far beneath the bitter snows,
Lies the seed, that with the sun's love,
In the spring becomes the rose
The Rose
~ by Bette Midler
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♥ When they walk through the valley of weeping it will become a place of springs where pools of blessing and refreshment collect after rains
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we never gave up, Michael, we kept trying, we did the best we could, we both did
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you loved this word... prestidigitater ~ magician
12.04.2016
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you'll love this...
"don't use a big word when a singularly unloquacious and diminutive linguistic expression will satisfactorily accomplish the contemporary necessity"
i miss you
12.08.2016
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remember the Cherokee symbol we found that day after our visit to the museum? I have the perfect use for it, I know you'll love it! I do!! Eternal Love ♥
12.16.2016l
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I read an article that I know you'll like.
It was about Stand Watie, a Cherokee. He was a Brig Gen, serving in the Civil War for the Confederacy. He was commander of the Cherokee Mounted Rifles and fought with his men in more battles west of the Mississippi than any other leader.
He was the last Confederate general to surrender at the end of the war.
His name, Stand Watie, in Cherokee means, 'He Stands'.
He is buried in Polson Cemetery outside Southwest City, MO.
Pretty awesome, huh?
Here's a jewel for ya...
oonawich unggi ~ the oldest wind
12.18.2016
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♥ of all that ever was
or that will ever be
the last kiss we shared
is one you gave to me ♥
12.28.2016
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Remember the Cherokee symbol we found on-line the evening after we went to the Native American History Museum in Bentonville? I got it today, you like it, huh? Yeah, yeah, I know... Whatever!!
hahaha you funny!! loveyou xox
12.29.2016
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Sleep my love and peace attend thee,
All through the night
Guardian angels God will send thee,
All through the night
Soft the drowsy hours are creeping,
Hill and vale in slumber sleeping
— Welsh lullaby
01.01.2017
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Always a silent hurt,
many a silent tear,
but always a beautiful memory
of one I love so dear.
God gave me the strength to bear it,
and courage to take the blow,
but what it meant to lose you
...no one will ever know ♥
01.02.2017
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here's one you'll like...
ophidiophobia.... fear of snakes
01.03.2017
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There are still days when I don't know how to feel about your dying, or if I feel anything. It's still not really sunk in, I don't think, that you're not here on this earth any longer. I've known you since Aug 1987 and in all these years we've either been a part of each others lives or we were 'connected' in our special way. Now there's neither, you're just... gone... I catch myself thinkin I should be gettin a text from you or a call, then it hits almost as fresh as the night sister came and told me that you'd been killed. There will be no more for us, not on this earth. Michael, I don't know how to do this, I don't know what life is without you in it. A day at a time, a day at a time... I missyou, I loveyou
01.04.2017
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Michael
on the day of my death
my final breath will whisper your name,
when I close my eyes for the final time,
your face will be the last thing I see,
your voice will be the call
of 'welcome home' to my soul,
my love for you will carry me
to once more stand by your side,
across all the many years...
all the time that may pass,
my heart will find yours
. . . until then
. . . . . 'til next time
your unique B ♥
01.05.2017
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Having a beer tonight, reminds me so of the nights we spent back-roadin, those were the days and nights. Remember the place you took me that night and you built a fire, then you told me about you and a couple of your buddies being there one night and hearing something BIG walkin on the hight bank out in front of where we were sittin on the tail gate of your truck... and I made you go with me to the front of your truck to pee and yes you turned your back. It still makes my heart rate jump just to think of a big kitty being up there on that bank. We had so much fun, didn't we Michael? How I'd love to have just one more night with you. God, I miss you.
01.06.2017
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heretic, rebel, a thing to flout
you drew a circle and shut me out
but love and I had the wit to win
we drew a circle and shut YOU in
... in the end, love & I won
loveyou Michael
01.08.2017
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Nothing Gold Can Stay
Nature's first green is gold,
Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leaf's a flower;
But only so an hour.
Then leaf subsides to leaf.
So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down to day.
Nothing gold can stay
~ Robert Frost
01.16.2017
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"There is s sacredness in tears.
They are not the mark of weakness,
but of power.
They speak more eloquently than ten thousand tongues.
They are the messengers of overwhelming grief, of loss and of unspeakable love."
Michael, I found this just a bit ago... it says it all.
Tears have become a daily thing since you left.
I loveyou xox
bjv
01.24.2017
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Home isn't always a place, a house,
Home is the love and acceptance
I see when I look into your eyes.
Home is the sound of our mingled laughter.
Home is the silence around us when our hearts are speaking.
Home is the two of us... together... alone... even in the midst of a crowd.
Home is wherever we are when I'm with you.
Wait for me, Michael, I'll be home again with you one day.
I loveyou, I missyou xox
your B
01.26.2017
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two months ago tonight, sister came by to tell me you'd been killed. "Michael was killed yesterday."
I can't imagine being in her shoes and having to tell her something like that. My world will never, ever be the same. I miss you so much, I loveyou, Michael xox
your B
01.29.2017
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I am my beloved's... and my beloved is mine...
so lonely for you tonight, Michael xox
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Do not go gentle into that good night,
Old age should burn and rave at close of day;
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
Though wise men at their end know dark is right,
Because their words had forked no lightning they
Do not go gentle into that good night.
Good men, the last wave by, crying how bright
Their frail deeds might have danced in a green bay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
Wild men who caught and sang the sun in flight,
And learn, too late, they grieved it on its way,
Do not go gentle into that good night.
Grave men, near death, who see with blinding sight
Blind eyes could blaze like meteors and be gay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
~ Dylan Thomas 1914 - 1953
I think a small part of my shock at your leavin is that I always thought you'd out-live me... I was never prepared to be the one to face this life without YOU...
always&forever your B
02.02.2017
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In all the years that I've lived, I've never loved like I love you...
In all the days I've lived, I've never been loved like I was loved by you...
In all the years to come, I think I'll never find another soul so like mine...
In all the days to come, I know I'll never find another heart that beats as mine...
In all the years and days of my life, my love for you will never fade, will never end, always and forever our love will go on...
til next time...
bjv
02.07.2017
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The Robert Frost poem, Nothing Gold Can Stay...
I've always loved it and the movie, The Outsiders, is one of my favorite movies...
I always thought I knew what the poem was talking about, but the other night I was reading it here again in your bio, my heart whispered the true meaning of the poem to me...
remember the way you and I felt when we'd look at the pics of each other when we were young, you in your Air Force uniform and me in my Antler Maid pic... the aching tenderness we felt looking at those pics... how it 'hurt' us deep inside to look at'em... that, I think, is exactly what that poem is talking about, in those pics and for a short time in our young, innocent lives, before the world had left scars on our heart and soul, we were 'gold'. Our hearts saw that innocence, our 'golden' days in those two pictures. I don't think our minds ever quite put words to it but oh yes, our hearts knew. I love those pics of us, they are two of my favorites and yes my heart still aches when I look at the one of you. You'd mentioned not long ago about how you felt when you saw the pic of me, that you loved the pic but hated to look at it, it 'hurt' you to look at it.
Nothing Gold Can Stay... loveyou, Michael xox
B 02.08.2017
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"What was good and what was ill,
what would save and what would kill.
Thus gone, amongst you I may live,
and dead, yet speak and counsel give.
Farewell my birds, farewell, adieu,
I happy am, if well with you."
~ Anne Bradstreet
I am happy that you're in a place that no one is able to hurt you, to torment you, to touch you in any way.
I miss you soooo very much, though.
loveyou xox
bjv 2.16.2017
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"We're all travelers in this world. From the sweet grass to the packing house. Birth 'til death. We travel between the eternities." ~ Prentice Ritter (Robert Duvall)
Remembering the night I was watching this movie, Broken Trail, all I told you was the name of the movie and you remembered it was about some Chinese girls and Robert Duvall was in it, a cowboy watching out for them. I was always amazed by your memory. I sent you the quote, you really liked it!
02.25.2017
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...gently they go,
the beautiful,
the tender,
the kind...
I know.
But I do not approve.
I am not resigned...
~ by Edna St. Vincent Millay
loveyou xox
02.28.2017
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Your adopt-a-hiway memorial sign was installed on the 27 of Feb. It's just south of daddy and mommie's. I can't wait to see it! I'll get pictures of it as soon as the rain stops.
I remember you saying how awesome it was that sister and I did that for them, that it showed how much we love them and how devoted we are to their memory.
Yours is to honor you, as is their's.
I loveyou more than I have words to tell you and oh god, Michael, I miss you so, so much.
bjv 3.25.2017
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On my way home this evening I drove out and got pics of your sign. It's awesome! I sent Matthew a pic of it, he really likes it. I know that you're pleased with it as you always loved it when I did out of the ordinary things for you. Now that I think about it we both did that in our gifts to each other. I'll always cherish the dolphin light you got me... think tuna... was your hint, you suck at hints, by the way! lol I love the fossils you got for me at the Discovery store in KC. And the flint axe and grinding stone, you knew I'd love those. I look around my home and see so much of you here. So many great memories here of the two of us, all the hours we've spent here, just you and me, the rest of the world locked away and forgotten.
Til next time loveyou, Michael xox
bjv 3.26.2017
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Byron shared this with me today, you'll like it!!
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bjv 4.8.2017
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It's amazing how just a few spoken words can stay carved deeply and permanently on heart and soul, I can still hear you say those words to me, wonderful memories.
loveyou Michael ♥
bjv 4.12.2017
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I went up to visit you on Sunday. Your stones are awesome. I know that you love your military stone. Matt did an awesome job of picking that one for you.
I love the 'bikie' on the back of your stone, I know you do also.
I've added the pix of your stones to your memorial.
loveyou xox
bjv 05.15.2017
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Deuteronomy 31:6
"Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you."
I really like this verse. Gonna borrow it from you for a while.
loveyou xox
bjv 05.16.2017
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Oh Michael, tonight I found the last letter you wrote to me from Forrest City. I was so afraid that I'd lost it.
It broke my heart to read the words you wrote to me from your heart. I hope you know what those words mean to me.
Time hasn't and won't, I truly believe, diminished the love I have for you. The same love I've had for you for soooo many years. Always & Forever... I am my beloved's and my beloved is mine
06.06.2017
Tuesday
bjv ~:}
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"to mourn is respectful, to remember is holy"
~ The Red Tent
bjv 06.11.2017
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"The world is made round so we will not see too far ahead"
~ Out of Africa ~
I think now more than at any other time in my life this is sooo true. It's a good thing that we CAN'T see too far ahead.
bjv 07.28.2017
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I dreamed of you last night... You were walking south on 13th, almost to the lights at Walnut, I was going north and just as I went thru the lights a guy that I'd just passed spoke to you, calling you by name. I knew by the way you were walking that it was you so I started pullin over into the parking lot of the electric store. That's when you said it...
"Hello sweetness"
Wonder where that came from, I don't ever remember hearing anyone us that pet-name.
I just kissed all over your face... was good to be with you for just those few moments... loveyou Michael, missyou xox
bjv 08.06.2017 Sunday
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♥.. All Of Me ..♥
What would I do without your smart mouth?
Drawing me in, and you kicking me out
You've got my head spinning, no kidding, I can't pin you down
What's going on in that beautiful mind
I'm on your magical mystery ride
And I'm so dizzy, don't know what hit me, but I'll be alright
My head's under water
But I'm breathing fine
You're crazy and I'm out of my mind
'Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I'll give my all to you
You're my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I'm winning
'Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, oh oh
How many times do I have to tell you
Even when you're crying you're beautiful too
The world is beating you down, I'm around through every mood
You're my downfall, you're my muse
My worst distraction, my rhythm and blues
I can't stop singing, it's ringing, in my head for you
My head's under water
But I'm breathing fine
You're crazy and I'm out of my mind
'Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I'll give my all to you
You're my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I'm winning
'Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, oh oh
Give me all of you
Cards on the table, we're both showing hearts
Risking it all, though it's hard
'Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I'll give my all to you
You're my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I'm winning
'Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you
I give you all of me
And you give me all of you ♥
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♥...this song says it all, Michael
loveyou my sweetness xox
09.11.2017
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Remember the ride you took me on... on your bikie? You gave me such a wonderful gift that day, Michael. You told me that whenever I have a bad dream, remember to just 'hold on'. Lately, since you left this world, my life often seems like a bad dream. I take a deep breath and remember to 'hold on' just like you told me to. Just hold on... til next time, I'll hold on... loveyou XOX
B 11.17.2017
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This Is Not Goodbye
Bravely you let go of my hand
I can't speak yet you understand
Where I go now, I go alone
This path I walk, these days of stone
And the angels are calling
I must go away
Wait for me here, silently stay
And don't ask me why
Only believe this is not goodbye
All of my strength, all my desire
Still cannot melt this breath of fire
I go to meet some kind of test
Bury the truth that scars my chest
And the angels are calling and calling
I must go away
Wait for me here, silently stay
And don't ask me why
Only believe this is not goodbye
I gathered all my courage
I shaved off all my fear
With this banner on my shoulder
I hold your essence near
And the angels are calling and calling and calling
I must go away
Wait for me here, silently stay
And don't ask me why
Only believe this is not goodbye
Only believe this is not goodbye
~ Melissa Ethridge ~
...really Michael... this is not goodbye... ♥
12.27.2017
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ksihRX4kPtM
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I have missed you…
...like the parched dry earth misses the life giving rain
...like the darkened mountains waits for the sun to rise once again
...like the retreating night misses the approaching dawn
...in a thousand thoughts, I've missed you in every one
bjv 02.18.2018
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I missyou... I loveyou... to the end of days...
06.16.2018
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09.19.2018
I heard your voice in the wind today
and I turned to see your face;
The warmth of the wind caressed me
as I stood silently in place.
I felt your touch in the sun today
as its warmth filled the sky;
I closed my eyes for your embrace
and my spirit soared high.
I saw your eyes in the window pane
as I watched the falling rain;
It seemed as each raindrop fell
it quietly said your name.
I held you close in my heart today
it made me feel complete;
You may have died...but you are not gone
you will always be a part of me.
As long as the sun shines...
the wind blows...
the rain falls...
You will live on inside of me forever
for that is all my heart knows.
loveyou, Michael xox
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I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While you're far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure
I missyou, loveyou xox
11.18.2018
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just the other day I remembered our 'ding! ding! ding!'... TMI... TMI... remember lol
how I miss how our crazy minds worked
loveyou xox
11.19.2018
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Earlier I was eating a burger and when I got to the middle bite I was reminded of the time you asked me for that specific bite of a burger years ago. I asked you why you wanted that bite in particular and you said it was the very best part of any sandwich. Of course I gave you that bite. I never eat a burger or sandwich that I don't think of you when I get to the middle bite. missyou so much loveyou xox
06.02.2019
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The Thorn Bird…
A story… a legend about a bird that sings just once in its life.
From the moment it leaves its nest it searches for a thorn tree and never rests 'til it's found one.
And then it sings more sweetly than any other creature on the face of the Earth.
And singing it impales its self on the longest, sharpest thorn but as it dies, it rises above its own agony to out sing the lark and the nightingale.
The Thorn Bird pays its life for just one song but the whole world stills to listen...
.... and God in Heaven smiles.
♥ The best is bought only at the cost of great pain ♥
06.14.2019
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Ran across this today, it's something you'll like, I think.
Here is something Every American should know. Until I read this, I didn't know, but I checked it out and it's true:
We in the United States have all heard the haunting song, 'Taps...' It's the song that gives us the lump in our throats and usually tears in our eyes.
But, do you know the story behind the song? If not, I think you will be interested to find out about its humble beginnings.
Reportedly, it all began in 1862 during the Civil War, when Union Army Captain Robert Elli was with his men near Harrison's Landing in Virginia. The Confederate Army was on the other side of the narrow strip of land.
During the night, Captain Elli heard the moans of a soldier who lay severely wounded on the field. Not knowing if it was a Union or Confederate soldier, the Captain decided to risk his life and bring the stricken man back for medical attention. Crawling on his stomach through the gunfire, the Captain reached the stricken soldier and began pulling him toward his encampment..
When the Captain finally reached his own lines, he discovered it was actually a Confederate soldier, but the soldier was dead.
The Captain lit a lantern and suddenly caught his breath and went numb with shock. In the dim light, he saw the face of the soldier. It was his own son. The boy had been studying music in the South when the war broke out.. Without telling his father, the boy enlisted in the Confederate Army.
The following morning, heartbroken, the father asked permission of his superiors to give his son a full military burial, despite his enemy status. His request was only partially granted.
The Captain had asked if he could have a group of Army band members play a funeral dirge for his son at the funeral.
The request was turned down since the soldier was a Confederate.
But, out of respect for the father, they did say they could give him only one musician.
The Captain chose a bugler. He asked the bugler to play a series of musical notes he had found on a piece of paper in the pocket of the dead youth's uniform.
This wish was granted.
The haunting melody, we now know as 'Taps' used at military funerals was born.
The words are:
Day is done.
Gone the sun.
From the lakes
From the hills.
From the sky.
All is well.
Safely rest.
God is nigh.
Fading light.
Dims the sight.
And a star.
Gems the sky.
Gleaming bright.
From afar.
Drawing nigh.
Falls the night.
Thanks and praise.
For our days.
Neath the sun
Neath the stars.
Neath the sky
As we go.
This we know.
God is nigh
01.11.2020
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Found us another word, I think you'll like it... gogitatin ~ think deeply about something, meditate.
Oh, how I miss our word games. loveyou sweet man xox
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08.17.2021
I met you 34 years ago tonight. Little did I know what you would come to mean to me, how you would change my life.
I wouldn't trade the years we had or the memories we made for anything.
alwaysNforever, I loveyou xox
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09.23.2021
Found us a new word, absquatulate, pretty awesome, huh?
I love it when I find a word like this one!
missyou, loveyou xox
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now my love you've gone away
you were only to me given
to stay with me but for a day
and then you went to heaven
farewell my love for awhile
you're done with earthly care
But oh! I won't forget your smile
that always cheered me here!
06.11.2022
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"Do not stand at my grave and weep
I am not there. I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry;
I am not there. I did not die."
Clare Harner - Immortality, 1934.
10.21.2022
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I will wait,
I am waiting,
and I will love you
with all the love
I possess
until this body
is ash
and I begin my search
for you
again.
~ Tyler Knott Gregson
10.27.2022
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♥ I so loved making you laugh and laugh hard. Because I knew that at that very moment you were the furtherest away from the things that hurt you ♥
01.15.2023
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♥ In the shadow of memories is where I live now. For that is the only place I can still touch traces of you ♥
01.17.2023
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Bye for now my precious love,
I give you up to our God,
With my tears I'll deck your early grave,
And bow beneath the rod,
The pain to me has been severe,
For I am left alone,
God only lent you to me here,
Now He has called you home.
06.06.2023
from an old gravestone, modified by me
I missyou so much, Michael, loveyou ♥
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Sept 16th. A special day in my memories with you¸.✶♥
♥..missyou…still love so much..♥
09.16.2023
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Michael Joe Stubblefield, age 53, of Cassville, Missouri, passed away Monday, November 28, 2016 in Oklahoma. He was killed in a logging accident when a dead tree fell on him.
He was born June 25, 1963 in Monett, Missouri to Ronald and Betty Browning.
He was adopted by Gilbert Stubblefield after his mom re-married. He is survived by Gilbert and Betty (Hyde) Stubblefield, of Cassville, Missouri.
Also surviving are one brother, Matthew Stubblefield and his wife Bri of Cassville, Missouri; one sister, Heather Carter and her husband Chris of Harrison, Arkansas and nieces and nephews, Dustin Stubblefield, Lexi Stubblefield, Lilly Carter, Brantley Stubblefield and Bolton Stubblefield.
Preceding him in death were his biological father, Ronald Browning, one brother, Alan Lee Stubblefield and grandparents, Emit and Mildred Hyde, Chester and Bea Browning and Albert and Ruby Stubblefield.
Michael received his education at Southwest of Washburn School and graduated from Cassville High School.
From July 16, 1981 until July 15, 1985 he served in the United States Air Force, serving two of the four years in Korea.
He had been a rural mail carrier at Exeter, MO. before being sworn in as postmaster at Seligman, MO and then transferred to Eagle Rock, MO.
He later became a self-employed logger.
He was a member of Corinth Baptist Church but would attend Cassville First Baptist Church.
Some of his favorite pastimes were riding motorcycles, reading National Geographic, loved history of people and enjoyed spending time with his family.
Funeral services will be held at 2:00 P.M. Saturday, December 3, 2016 at Fohn Funeral Home in Cassville. Pastor James Weaver will conduct the services.
Burial with military honors will be at Corinth Cemetery in Cassville.
The family will receive friends from 6:00 until 8:00 P.M. Friday at Fohn Funeral Home in Cassville.
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...♥..... I loved you
.....♥...... and I lost you
.......♥....... and I will never be the same...♥
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... Death Is Nothing At All ...
Death is nothing at all.
It does not count.
I have only slipped away into the next room.
Nothing has happened.
Everything remains exactly as it was.
I am I, and you are you,
and the old life that we lived so fondly together is untouched, unchanged.
Whatever we were to each other, that we are still.
Call me by the old familiar name.
Speak of me in the easy way which you always used.
Put no difference into your tone.
Wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow.
Laugh as we always laughed at the little jokes that we enjoyed together.
Play, smile, think of me, pray for me.
Let my name be ever the household word that it always was.
Let it be spoken without an effort, without the ghost of a shadow upon it.
Life means all that it ever meant.
It is the same as it ever was.
There is absolute and unbroken continuity.
What is this death but a negligible accident?
Why should I be out of mind because I am out of sight?
I am but waiting for you, for an interval,
somewhere very near,
just round the corner.
All is well.
Nothing is hurt; nothing is lost.
One brief moment and all will be as it was before.
How we shall laugh at the trouble of parting when we meet again!
~ Henry Scott-Holland
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"What we have once enjoyed
and deeply loved,
we can never lose.
For all that we love deeply
becomes a part of us."
~ Helen Keller
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I thought of you with love today,
but that is nothing new.
I thought about you yesterday,
and the day before that, too.
I think of you in silence,
...I often say your name,
But all I have is memories
and your picture in a frame.
Your memory is my keepsake,
with which I'll never part.
God has you in his keeping,
I have you in my heart.
I shed tears for what might have been,
a million times I've cried.
If love alone could have saved you,
you never would have died.
In life I loved you dearly,
in death I love you still,
In my heart you hold a place
no one could ever fill.
It broke my heart to lose you,
but you didn't go alone,
For part of me went with you,
the day God took you home.
~ Author Unknown
12.22.2016
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when you left...
a piece of my heart went with you...
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When you remember me, it means that you have carried something of who I am with you, that I have left some mark of who I am on who you are. It means that you can summon me back to your mind even though countless years and miles may stand between us. It means that if we meet again, you will know me. It means that even after I die, you can still see my face and hear my voice and speak to me in your heart. For as long as you remember me, I am never entirely lost.
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Some say love, it is a river
That drowns the tender reed.
Some say love, it is a razor
That leaves your soul to bleed.
Some say love, it is a hunger,
An endless aching need.
I say love, it is a flower,
And you it's only seed.
It's the heart, afraid of breaking,
That never learns to dance.
It's the dream, afraid of waking,
That never takes a chance.
It's the one who won't be taken,
Who cannot seem to give.
And the soul, afraid of dyin',
That never learns to live.
When the night has been too lonely,
And the road has been too long,
And you think that love is only
For the lucky and the strong,
Just remember in the winter
Far beneath the bitter snows,
Lies the seed, that with the sun's love,
In the spring becomes the rose
The Rose
~ by Bette Midler
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♥ When they walk through the valley of weeping it will become a place of springs where pools of blessing and refreshment collect after rains
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we never gave up, Michael, we kept trying, we did the best we could, we both did
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you loved this word... prestidigitater ~ magician
12.04.2016
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you'll love this...
"don't use a big word when a singularly unloquacious and diminutive linguistic expression will satisfactorily accomplish the contemporary necessity"
i miss you
12.08.2016
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remember the Cherokee symbol we found that day after our visit to the museum? I have the perfect use for it, I know you'll love it! I do!! Eternal Love ♥
12.16.2016l
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I read an article that I know you'll like.
It was about Stand Watie, a Cherokee. He was a Brig Gen, serving in the Civil War for the Confederacy. He was commander of the Cherokee Mounted Rifles and fought with his men in more battles west of the Mississippi than any other leader.
He was the last Confederate general to surrender at the end of the war.
His name, Stand Watie, in Cherokee means, 'He Stands'.
He is buried in Polson Cemetery outside Southwest City, MO.
Pretty awesome, huh?
Here's a jewel for ya...
oonawich unggi ~ the oldest wind
12.18.2016
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♥ of all that ever was
or that will ever be
the last kiss we shared
is one you gave to me ♥
12.28.2016
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Remember the Cherokee symbol we found on-line the evening after we went to the Native American History Museum in Bentonville? I got it today, you like it, huh? Yeah, yeah, I know... Whatever!!
hahaha you funny!! loveyou xox
12.29.2016
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Sleep my love and peace attend thee,
All through the night
Guardian angels God will send thee,
All through the night
Soft the drowsy hours are creeping,
Hill and vale in slumber sleeping
— Welsh lullaby
01.01.2017
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Always a silent hurt,
many a silent tear,
but always a beautiful memory
of one I love so dear.
God gave me the strength to bear it,
and courage to take the blow,
but what it meant to lose you
...no one will ever know ♥
01.02.2017
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here's one you'll like...
ophidiophobia.... fear of snakes
01.03.2017
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There are still days when I don't know how to feel about your dying, or if I feel anything. It's still not really sunk in, I don't think, that you're not here on this earth any longer. I've known you since Aug 1987 and in all these years we've either been a part of each others lives or we were 'connected' in our special way. Now there's neither, you're just... gone... I catch myself thinkin I should be gettin a text from you or a call, then it hits almost as fresh as the night sister came and told me that you'd been killed. There will be no more for us, not on this earth. Michael, I don't know how to do this, I don't know what life is without you in it. A day at a time, a day at a time... I missyou, I loveyou
01.04.2017
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Michael
on the day of my death
my final breath will whisper your name,
when I close my eyes for the final time,
your face will be the last thing I see,
your voice will be the call
of 'welcome home' to my soul,
my love for you will carry me
to once more stand by your side,
across all the many years...
all the time that may pass,
my heart will find yours
. . . until then
. . . . . 'til next time
your unique B ♥
01.05.2017
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Having a beer tonight, reminds me so of the nights we spent back-roadin, those were the days and nights. Remember the place you took me that night and you built a fire, then you told me about you and a couple of your buddies being there one night and hearing something BIG walkin on the hight bank out in front of where we were sittin on the tail gate of your truck... and I made you go with me to the front of your truck to pee and yes you turned your back. It still makes my heart rate jump just to think of a big kitty being up there on that bank. We had so much fun, didn't we Michael? How I'd love to have just one more night with you. God, I miss you.
01.06.2017
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heretic, rebel, a thing to flout
you drew a circle and shut me out
but love and I had the wit to win
we drew a circle and shut YOU in
... in the end, love & I won
loveyou Michael
01.08.2017
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Nothing Gold Can Stay
Nature's first green is gold,
Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leaf's a flower;
But only so an hour.
Then leaf subsides to leaf.
So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down to day.
Nothing gold can stay
~ Robert Frost
01.16.2017
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"There is s sacredness in tears.
They are not the mark of weakness,
but of power.
They speak more eloquently than ten thousand tongues.
They are the messengers of overwhelming grief, of loss and of unspeakable love."
Michael, I found this just a bit ago... it says it all.
Tears have become a daily thing since you left.
I loveyou xox
bjv
01.24.2017
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Home isn't always a place, a house,
Home is the love and acceptance
I see when I look into your eyes.
Home is the sound of our mingled laughter.
Home is the silence around us when our hearts are speaking.
Home is the two of us... together... alone... even in the midst of a crowd.
Home is wherever we are when I'm with you.
Wait for me, Michael, I'll be home again with you one day.
I loveyou, I missyou xox
your B
01.26.2017
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two months ago tonight, sister came by to tell me you'd been killed. "Michael was killed yesterday."
I can't imagine being in her shoes and having to tell her something like that. My world will never, ever be the same. I miss you so much, I loveyou, Michael xox
your B
01.29.2017
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ಌڿڰۣಌ♥ L٥ﻻ ﻉ√٥υ f٥гﻉ√ﻉг ♥ಌڿڰۣಌ♥
I am my beloved's... and my beloved is mine...
so lonely for you tonight, Michael xox
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Do not go gentle into that good night,
Old age should burn and rave at close of day;
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
Though wise men at their end know dark is right,
Because their words had forked no lightning they
Do not go gentle into that good night.
Good men, the last wave by, crying how bright
Their frail deeds might have danced in a green bay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
Wild men who caught and sang the sun in flight,
And learn, too late, they grieved it on its way,
Do not go gentle into that good night.
Grave men, near death, who see with blinding sight
Blind eyes could blaze like meteors and be gay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
~ Dylan Thomas 1914 - 1953
I think a small part of my shock at your leavin is that I always thought you'd out-live me... I was never prepared to be the one to face this life without YOU...
always&forever your B
02.02.2017
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In all the years that I've lived, I've never loved like I love you...
In all the days I've lived, I've never been loved like I was loved by you...
In all the years to come, I think I'll never find another soul so like mine...
In all the days to come, I know I'll never find another heart that beats as mine...
In all the years and days of my life, my love for you will never fade, will never end, always and forever our love will go on...
til next time...
bjv
02.07.2017
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The Robert Frost poem, Nothing Gold Can Stay...
I've always loved it and the movie, The Outsiders, is one of my favorite movies...
I always thought I knew what the poem was talking about, but the other night I was reading it here again in your bio, my heart whispered the true meaning of the poem to me...
remember the way you and I felt when we'd look at the pics of each other when we were young, you in your Air Force uniform and me in my Antler Maid pic... the aching tenderness we felt looking at those pics... how it 'hurt' us deep inside to look at'em... that, I think, is exactly what that poem is talking about, in those pics and for a short time in our young, innocent lives, before the world had left scars on our heart and soul, we were 'gold'. Our hearts saw that innocence, our 'golden' days in those two pictures. I don't think our minds ever quite put words to it but oh yes, our hearts knew. I love those pics of us, they are two of my favorites and yes my heart still aches when I look at the one of you. You'd mentioned not long ago about how you felt when you saw the pic of me, that you loved the pic but hated to look at it, it 'hurt' you to look at it.
Nothing Gold Can Stay... loveyou, Michael xox
B 02.08.2017
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"What was good and what was ill,
what would save and what would kill.
Thus gone, amongst you I may live,
and dead, yet speak and counsel give.
Farewell my birds, farewell, adieu,
I happy am, if well with you."
~ Anne Bradstreet
I am happy that you're in a place that no one is able to hurt you, to torment you, to touch you in any way.
I miss you soooo very much, though.
loveyou xox
bjv 2.16.2017
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"We're all travelers in this world. From the sweet grass to the packing house. Birth 'til death. We travel between the eternities." ~ Prentice Ritter (Robert Duvall)
Remembering the night I was watching this movie, Broken Trail, all I told you was the name of the movie and you remembered it was about some Chinese girls and Robert Duvall was in it, a cowboy watching out for them. I was always amazed by your memory. I sent you the quote, you really liked it!
02.25.2017
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...gently they go,
the beautiful,
the tender,
the kind...
I know.
But I do not approve.
I am not resigned...
~ by Edna St. Vincent Millay
loveyou xox
02.28.2017
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Your adopt-a-hiway memorial sign was installed on the 27 of Feb. It's just south of daddy and mommie's. I can't wait to see it! I'll get pictures of it as soon as the rain stops.
I remember you saying how awesome it was that sister and I did that for them, that it showed how much we love them and how devoted we are to their memory.
Yours is to honor you, as is their's.
I loveyou more than I have words to tell you and oh god, Michael, I miss you so, so much.
bjv 3.25.2017
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On my way home this evening I drove out and got pics of your sign. It's awesome! I sent Matthew a pic of it, he really likes it. I know that you're pleased with it as you always loved it when I did out of the ordinary things for you. Now that I think about it we both did that in our gifts to each other. I'll always cherish the dolphin light you got me... think tuna... was your hint, you suck at hints, by the way! lol I love the fossils you got for me at the Discovery store in KC. And the flint axe and grinding stone, you knew I'd love those. I look around my home and see so much of you here. So many great memories here of the two of us, all the hours we've spent here, just you and me, the rest of the world locked away and forgotten.
Til next time loveyou, Michael xox
bjv 3.26.2017
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Byron shared this with me today, you'll like it!!
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bjv 4.8.2017
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It's amazing how just a few spoken words can stay carved deeply and permanently on heart and soul, I can still hear you say those words to me, wonderful memories.
loveyou Michael ♥
bjv 4.12.2017
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I went up to visit you on Sunday. Your stones are awesome. I know that you love your military stone. Matt did an awesome job of picking that one for you.
I love the 'bikie' on the back of your stone, I know you do also.
I've added the pix of your stones to your memorial.
loveyou xox
bjv 05.15.2017
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Deuteronomy 31:6
"Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you."
I really like this verse. Gonna borrow it from you for a while.
loveyou xox
bjv 05.16.2017
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Oh Michael, tonight I found the last letter you wrote to me from Forrest City. I was so afraid that I'd lost it.
It broke my heart to read the words you wrote to me from your heart. I hope you know what those words mean to me.
Time hasn't and won't, I truly believe, diminished the love I have for you. The same love I've had for you for soooo many years. Always & Forever... I am my beloved's and my beloved is mine
06.06.2017
Tuesday
bjv ~:}
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"to mourn is respectful, to remember is holy"
~ The Red Tent
bjv 06.11.2017
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"The world is made round so we will not see too far ahead"
~ Out of Africa ~
I think now more than at any other time in my life this is sooo true. It's a good thing that we CAN'T see too far ahead.
bjv 07.28.2017
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I dreamed of you last night... You were walking south on 13th, almost to the lights at Walnut, I was going north and just as I went thru the lights a guy that I'd just passed spoke to you, calling you by name. I knew by the way you were walking that it was you so I started pullin over into the parking lot of the electric store. That's when you said it...
"Hello sweetness"
Wonder where that came from, I don't ever remember hearing anyone us that pet-name.
I just kissed all over your face... was good to be with you for just those few moments... loveyou Michael, missyou xox
bjv 08.06.2017 Sunday
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What would I do without your smart mouth?
Drawing me in, and you kicking me out
You've got my head spinning, no kidding, I can't pin you down
What's going on in that beautiful mind
I'm on your magical mystery ride
And I'm so dizzy, don't know what hit me, but I'll be alright
My head's under water
But I'm breathing fine
You're crazy and I'm out of my mind
'Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I'll give my all to you
You're my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I'm winning
'Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, oh oh
How many times do I have to tell you
Even when you're crying you're beautiful too
The world is beating you down, I'm around through every mood
You're my downfall, you're my muse
My worst distraction, my rhythm and blues
I can't stop singing, it's ringing, in my head for you
My head's under water
But I'm breathing fine
You're crazy and I'm out of my mind
'Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I'll give my all to you
You're my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I'm winning
'Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, oh oh
Give me all of you
Cards on the table, we're both showing hearts
Risking it all, though it's hard
'Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I'll give my all to you
You're my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I'm winning
'Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you
I give you all of me
And you give me all of you ♥
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♥...this song says it all, Michael
loveyou my sweetness xox
09.11.2017
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Remember the ride you took me on... on your bikie? You gave me such a wonderful gift that day, Michael. You told me that whenever I have a bad dream, remember to just 'hold on'. Lately, since you left this world, my life often seems like a bad dream. I take a deep breath and remember to 'hold on' just like you told me to. Just hold on... til next time, I'll hold on... loveyou XOX
B 11.17.2017
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This Is Not Goodbye
Bravely you let go of my hand
I can't speak yet you understand
Where I go now, I go alone
This path I walk, these days of stone
And the angels are calling
I must go away
Wait for me here, silently stay
And don't ask me why
Only believe this is not goodbye
All of my strength, all my desire
Still cannot melt this breath of fire
I go to meet some kind of test
Bury the truth that scars my chest
And the angels are calling and calling
I must go away
Wait for me here, silently stay
And don't ask me why
Only believe this is not goodbye
I gathered all my courage
I shaved off all my fear
With this banner on my shoulder
I hold your essence near
And the angels are calling and calling and calling
I must go away
Wait for me here, silently stay
And don't ask me why
Only believe this is not goodbye
Only believe this is not goodbye
~ Melissa Ethridge ~
...really Michael... this is not goodbye... ♥
12.27.2017
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ksihRX4kPtM
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I have missed you…
...like the parched dry earth misses the life giving rain
...like the darkened mountains waits for the sun to rise once again
...like the retreating night misses the approaching dawn
...in a thousand thoughts, I've missed you in every one
bjv 02.18.2018
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I missyou... I loveyou... to the end of days...
06.16.2018
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09.19.2018
I heard your voice in the wind today
and I turned to see your face;
The warmth of the wind caressed me
as I stood silently in place.
I felt your touch in the sun today
as its warmth filled the sky;
I closed my eyes for your embrace
and my spirit soared high.
I saw your eyes in the window pane
as I watched the falling rain;
It seemed as each raindrop fell
it quietly said your name.
I held you close in my heart today
it made me feel complete;
You may have died...but you are not gone
you will always be a part of me.
As long as the sun shines...
the wind blows...
the rain falls...
You will live on inside of me forever
for that is all my heart knows.
loveyou, Michael xox
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I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While you're far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure
I missyou, loveyou xox
11.18.2018
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just the other day I remembered our 'ding! ding! ding!'... TMI... TMI... remember lol
how I miss how our crazy minds worked
loveyou xox
11.19.2018
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Earlier I was eating a burger and when I got to the middle bite I was reminded of the time you asked me for that specific bite of a burger years ago. I asked you why you wanted that bite in particular and you said it was the very best part of any sandwich. Of course I gave you that bite. I never eat a burger or sandwich that I don't think of you when I get to the middle bite. missyou so much loveyou xox
06.02.2019
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The Thorn Bird…
A story… a legend about a bird that sings just once in its life.
From the moment it leaves its nest it searches for a thorn tree and never rests 'til it's found one.
And then it sings more sweetly than any other creature on the face of the Earth.
And singing it impales its self on the longest, sharpest thorn but as it dies, it rises above its own agony to out sing the lark and the nightingale.
The Thorn Bird pays its life for just one song but the whole world stills to listen...
.... and God in Heaven smiles.
♥ The best is bought only at the cost of great pain ♥
06.14.2019
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Ran across this today, it's something you'll like, I think.
Here is something Every American should know. Until I read this, I didn't know, but I checked it out and it's true:
We in the United States have all heard the haunting song, 'Taps...' It's the song that gives us the lump in our throats and usually tears in our eyes.
But, do you know the story behind the song? If not, I think you will be interested to find out about its humble beginnings.
Reportedly, it all began in 1862 during the Civil War, when Union Army Captain Robert Elli was with his men near Harrison's Landing in Virginia. The Confederate Army was on the other side of the narrow strip of land.
During the night, Captain Elli heard the moans of a soldier who lay severely wounded on the field. Not knowing if it was a Union or Confederate soldier, the Captain decided to risk his life and bring the stricken man back for medical attention. Crawling on his stomach through the gunfire, the Captain reached the stricken soldier and began pulling him toward his encampment..
When the Captain finally reached his own lines, he discovered it was actually a Confederate soldier, but the soldier was dead.
The Captain lit a lantern and suddenly caught his breath and went numb with shock. In the dim light, he saw the face of the soldier. It was his own son. The boy had been studying music in the South when the war broke out.. Without telling his father, the boy enlisted in the Confederate Army.
The following morning, heartbroken, the father asked permission of his superiors to give his son a full military burial, despite his enemy status. His request was only partially granted.
The Captain had asked if he could have a group of Army band members play a funeral dirge for his son at the funeral.
The request was turned down since the soldier was a Confederate.
But, out of respect for the father, they did say they could give him only one musician.
The Captain chose a bugler. He asked the bugler to play a series of musical notes he had found on a piece of paper in the pocket of the dead youth's uniform.
This wish was granted.
The haunting melody, we now know as 'Taps' used at military funerals was born.
The words are:
Day is done.
Gone the sun.
From the lakes
From the hills.
From the sky.
All is well.
Safely rest.
God is nigh.
Fading light.
Dims the sight.
And a star.
Gems the sky.
Gleaming bright.
From afar.
Drawing nigh.
Falls the night.
Thanks and praise.
For our days.
Neath the sun
Neath the stars.
Neath the sky
As we go.
This we know.
God is nigh
01.11.2020
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Found us another word, I think you'll like it... gogitatin ~ think deeply about something, meditate.
Oh, how I miss our word games. loveyou sweet man xox
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08.17.2021
I met you 34 years ago tonight. Little did I know what you would come to mean to me, how you would change my life.
I wouldn't trade the years we had or the memories we made for anything.
alwaysNforever, I loveyou xox
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09.23.2021
Found us a new word, absquatulate, pretty awesome, huh?
I love it when I find a word like this one!
missyou, loveyou xox
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now my love you've gone away
you were only to me given
to stay with me but for a day
and then you went to heaven
farewell my love for awhile
you're done with earthly care
But oh! I won't forget your smile
that always cheered me here!
06.11.2022
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"Do not stand at my grave and weep
I am not there. I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry;
I am not there. I did not die."
Clare Harner - Immortality, 1934.
10.21.2022
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I will wait,
I am waiting,
and I will love you
with all the love
I possess
until this body
is ash
and I begin my search
for you
again.
~ Tyler Knott Gregson
10.27.2022
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♥ I so loved making you laugh and laugh hard. Because I knew that at that very moment you were the furtherest away from the things that hurt you ♥
01.15.2023
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♥ In the shadow of memories is where I live now. For that is the only place I can still touch traces of you ♥
01.17.2023
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Bye for now my precious love,
I give you up to our God,
With my tears I'll deck your early grave,
And bow beneath the rod,
The pain to me has been severe,
For I am left alone,
God only lent you to me here,
Now He has called you home.
06.06.2023
from an old gravestone, modified by me
I missyou so much, Michael, loveyou ♥
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Sept 16th. A special day in my memories with you¸.✶♥
♥..missyou…still love so much..♥
09.16.2023
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Michael Joe Stubblefield, age 53, of Cassville, Missouri, passed away Monday, November 28, 2016 in Oklahoma. He was killed in a logging accident when a dead tree fell on him.
He was born June 25, 1963 in Monett, Missouri to Ronald and Betty Browning.
He was adopted by Gilbert Stubblefield after his mom re-married. He is survived by Gilbert and Betty (Hyde) Stubblefield, of Cassville, Missouri.
Also surviving are one brother, Matthew Stubblefield and his wife Bri of Cassville, Missouri; one sister, Heather Carter and her husband Chris of Harrison, Arkansas and nieces and nephews, Dustin Stubblefield, Lexi Stubblefield, Lilly Carter, Brantley Stubblefield and Bolton Stubblefield.
Preceding him in death were his biological father, Ronald Browning, one brother, Alan Lee Stubblefield and grandparents, Emit and Mildred Hyde, Chester and Bea Browning and Albert and Ruby Stubblefield.
Michael received his education at Southwest of Washburn School and graduated from Cassville High School.
From July 16, 1981 until July 15, 1985 he served in the United States Air Force, serving two of the four years in Korea.
He had been a rural mail carrier at Exeter, MO. before being sworn in as postmaster at Seligman, MO and then transferred to Eagle Rock, MO.
He later became a self-employed logger.
He was a member of Corinth Baptist Church but would attend Cassville First Baptist Church.
Some of his favorite pastimes were riding motorcycles, reading National Geographic, loved history of people and enjoyed spending time with his family.
Funeral services will be held at 2:00 P.M. Saturday, December 3, 2016 at Fohn Funeral Home in Cassville. Pastor James Weaver will conduct the services.
Burial with military honors will be at Corinth Cemetery in Cassville.
The family will receive friends from 6:00 until 8:00 P.M. Friday at Fohn Funeral Home in Cassville.
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...♥..... I loved you
.....♥...... and I lost you
.......♥....... and I will never be the same...♥
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... Death Is Nothing At All ...
Death is nothing at all.
It does not count.
I have only slipped away into the next room.
Nothing has happened.
Everything remains exactly as it was.
I am I, and you are you,
and the old life that we lived so fondly together is untouched, unchanged.
Whatever we were to each other, that we are still.
Call me by the old familiar name.
Speak of me in the easy way which you always used.
Put no difference into your tone.
Wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow.
Laugh as we always laughed at the little jokes that we enjoyed together.
Play, smile, think of me, pray for me.
Let my name be ever the household word that it always was.
Let it be spoken without an effort, without the ghost of a shadow upon it.
Life means all that it ever meant.
It is the same as it ever was.
There is absolute and unbroken continuity.
What is this death but a negligible accident?
Why should I be out of mind because I am out of sight?
I am but waiting for you, for an interval,
somewhere very near,
just round the corner.
All is well.
Nothing is hurt; nothing is lost.
One brief moment and all will be as it was before.
How we shall laugh at the trouble of parting when we meet again!
~ Henry Scott-Holland
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"What we have once enjoyed
and deeply loved,
we can never lose.
For all that we love deeply
becomes a part of us."
~ Helen Keller
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I thought of you with love today,
but that is nothing new.
I thought about you yesterday,
and the day before that, too.
I think of you in silence,
...I often say your name,
But all I have is memories
and your picture in a frame.
Your memory is my keepsake,
with which I'll never part.
God has you in his keeping,
I have you in my heart.
I shed tears for what might have been,
a million times I've cried.
If love alone could have saved you,
you never would have died.
In life I loved you dearly,
in death I love you still,
In my heart you hold a place
no one could ever fill.
It broke my heart to lose you,
but you didn't go alone,
For part of me went with you,
the day God took you home.
~ Author Unknown
12.22.2016
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when you left...
a piece of my heart went with you...
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When you remember me, it means that you have carried something of who I am with you, that I have left some mark of who I am on who you are. It means that you can summon me back to your mind even though countless years and miles may stand between us. It means that if we meet again, you will know me. It means that even after I die, you can still see my face and hear my voice and speak to me in your heart. For as long as you remember me, I am never entirely lost.
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Some say love, it is a river
That drowns the tender reed.
Some say love, it is a razor
That leaves your soul to bleed.
Some say love, it is a hunger,
An endless aching need.
I say love, it is a flower,
And you it's only seed.
It's the heart, afraid of breaking,
That never learns to dance.
It's the dream, afraid of waking,
That never takes a chance.
It's the one who won't be taken,
Who cannot seem to give.
And the soul, afraid of dyin',
That never learns to live.
When the night has been too lonely,
And the road has been too long,
And you think that love is only
For the lucky and the strong,
Just remember in the winter
Far beneath the bitter snows,
Lies the seed, that with the sun's love,
In the spring becomes the rose
The Rose
~ by Bette Midler
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♥ When they walk through the valley of weeping it will become a place of springs where pools of blessing and refreshment collect after rains
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we never gave up, Michael, we kept trying, we did the best we could, we both did
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you loved this word... prestidigitater ~ magician
12.04.2016
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you'll love this...
"don't use a big word when a singularly unloquacious and diminutive linguistic expression will satisfactorily accomplish the contemporary necessity"
i miss you
12.08.2016
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remember the Cherokee symbol we found that day after our visit to the museum? I have the perfect use for it, I know you'll love it! I do!! Eternal Love ♥
12.16.2016l
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I read an article that I know you'll like.
It was about Stand Watie, a Cherokee. He was a Brig Gen, serving in the Civil War for the Confederacy. He was commander of the Cherokee Mounted Rifles and fought with his men in more battles west of the Mississippi than any other leader.
He was the last Confederate general to surrender at the end of the war.
His name, Stand Watie, in Cherokee means, 'He Stands'.
He is buried in Polson Cemetery outside Southwest City, MO.
Pretty awesome, huh?
Here's a jewel for ya...
oonawich unggi ~ the oldest wind
12.18.2016
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♥ of all that ever was
or that will ever be
the last kiss we shared
is one you gave to me ♥
12.28.2016
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Remember the Cherokee symbol we found on-line the evening after we went to the Native American History Museum in Bentonville? I got it today, you like it, huh? Yeah, yeah, I know... Whatever!!
hahaha you funny!! loveyou xox
12.29.2016
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Sleep my love and peace attend thee,
All through the night
Guardian angels God will send thee,
All through the night
Soft the drowsy hours are creeping,
Hill and vale in slumber sleeping
— Welsh lullaby
01.01.2017
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Always a silent hurt,
many a silent tear,
but always a beautiful memory
of one I love so dear.
God gave me the strength to bear it,
and courage to take the blow,
but what it meant to lose you
...no one will ever know ♥
01.02.2017
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here's one you'll like...
ophidiophobia.... fear of snakes
01.03.2017
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There are still days when I don't know how to feel about your dying, or if I feel anything. It's still not really sunk in, I don't think, that you're not here on this earth any longer. I've known you since Aug 1987 and in all these years we've either been a part of each others lives or we were 'connected' in our special way. Now there's neither, you're just... gone... I catch myself thinkin I should be gettin a text from you or a call, then it hits almost as fresh as the night sister came and told me that you'd been killed. There will be no more for us, not on this earth. Michael, I don't know how to do this, I don't know what life is without you in it. A day at a time, a day at a time... I missyou, I loveyou
01.04.2017
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Michael
on the day of my death
my final breath will whisper your name,
when I close my eyes for the final time,
your face will be the last thing I see,
your voice will be the call
of 'welcome home' to my soul,
my love for you will carry me
to once more stand by your side,
across all the many years...
all the time that may pass,
my heart will find yours
. . . until then
. . . . . 'til next time
your unique B ♥
01.05.2017
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Having a beer tonight, reminds me so of the nights we spent back-roadin, those were the days and nights. Remember the place you took me that night and you built a fire, then you told me about you and a couple of your buddies being there one night and hearing something BIG walkin on the hight bank out in front of where we were sittin on the tail gate of your truck... and I made you go with me to the front of your truck to pee and yes you turned your back. It still makes my heart rate jump just to think of a big kitty being up there on that bank. We had so much fun, didn't we Michael? How I'd love to have just one more night with you. God, I miss you.
01.06.2017
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heretic, rebel, a thing to flout
you drew a circle and shut me out
but love and I had the wit to win
we drew a circle and shut YOU in
... in the end, love & I won
loveyou Michael
01.08.2017
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Nothing Gold Can Stay
Nature's first green is gold,
Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leaf's a flower;
But only so an hour.
Then leaf subsides to leaf.
So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down to day.
Nothing gold can stay
~ Robert Frost
01.16.2017
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"There is s sacredness in tears.
They are not the mark of weakness,
but of power.
They speak more eloquently than ten thousand tongues.
They are the messengers of overwhelming grief, of loss and of unspeakable love."
Michael, I found this just a bit ago... it says it all.
Tears have become a daily thing since you left.
I loveyou xox
bjv
01.24.2017
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Home isn't always a place, a house,
Home is the love and acceptance
I see when I look into your eyes.
Home is the sound of our mingled laughter.
Home is the silence around us when our hearts are speaking.
Home is the two of us... together... alone... even in the midst of a crowd.
Home is wherever we are when I'm with you.
Wait for me, Michael, I'll be home again with you one day.
I loveyou, I missyou xox
your B
01.26.2017
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two months ago tonight, sister came by to tell me you'd been killed. "Michael was killed yesterday."
I can't imagine being in her shoes and having to tell her something like that. My world will never, ever be the same. I miss you so much, I loveyou, Michael xox
your B
01.29.2017
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ಌڿڰۣಌ♥ L٥ﻻ ﻉ√٥υ f٥гﻉ√ﻉг ♥ಌڿڰۣಌ♥
I am my beloved's... and my beloved is mine...
so lonely for you tonight, Michael xox
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Do not go gentle into that good night,
Old age should burn and rave at close of day;
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
Though wise men at their end know dark is right,
Because their words had forked no lightning they
Do not go gentle into that good night.
Good men, the last wave by, crying how bright
Their frail deeds might have danced in a green bay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
Wild men who caught and sang the sun in flight,
And learn, too late, they grieved it on its way,
Do not go gentle into that good night.
Grave men, near death, who see with blinding sight
Blind eyes could blaze like meteors and be gay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
~ Dylan Thomas 1914 - 1953
I think a small part of my shock at your leavin is that I always thought you'd out-live me... I was never prepared to be the one to face this life without YOU...
always&forever your B
02.02.2017
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In all the years that I've lived, I've never loved like I love you...
In all the days I've lived, I've never been loved like I was loved by you...
In all the years to come, I think I'll never find another soul so like mine...
In all the days to come, I know I'll never find another heart that beats as mine...
In all the years and days of my life, my love for you will never fade, will never end, always and forever our love will go on...
til next time...
bjv
02.07.2017
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The Robert Frost poem, Nothing Gold Can Stay...
I've always loved it and the movie, The Outsiders, is one of my favorite movies...
I always thought I knew what the poem was talking about, but the other night I was reading it here again in your bio, my heart whispered the true meaning of the poem to me...
remember the way you and I felt when we'd look at the pics of each other when we were young, you in your Air Force uniform and me in my Antler Maid pic... the aching tenderness we felt looking at those pics... how it 'hurt' us deep inside to look at'em... that, I think, is exactly what that poem is talking about, in those pics and for a short time in our young, innocent lives, before the world had left scars on our heart and soul, we were 'gold'. Our hearts saw that innocence, our 'golden' days in those two pictures. I don't think our minds ever quite put words to it but oh yes, our hearts knew. I love those pics of us, they are two of my favorites and yes my heart still aches when I look at the one of you. You'd mentioned not long ago about how you felt when you saw the pic of me, that you loved the pic but hated to look at it, it 'hurt' you to look at it.
Nothing Gold Can Stay... loveyou, Michael xox
B 02.08.2017
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"What was good and what was ill,
what would save and what would kill.
Thus gone, amongst you I may live,
and dead, yet speak and counsel give.
Farewell my birds, farewell, adieu,
I happy am, if well with you."
~ Anne Bradstreet
I am happy that you're in a place that no one is able to hurt you, to torment you, to touch you in any way.
I miss you soooo very much, though.
loveyou xox
bjv 2.16.2017
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"We're all travelers in this world. From the sweet grass to the packing house. Birth 'til death. We travel between the eternities." ~ Prentice Ritter (Robert Duvall)
Remembering the night I was watching this movie, Broken Trail, all I told you was the name of the movie and you remembered it was about some Chinese girls and Robert Duvall was in it, a cowboy watching out for them. I was always amazed by your memory. I sent you the quote, you really liked it!
02.25.2017
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...gently they go,
the beautiful,
the tender,
the kind...
I know.
But I do not approve.
I am not resigned...
~ by Edna St. Vincent Millay
loveyou xox
02.28.2017
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Your adopt-a-hiway memorial sign was installed on the 27 of Feb. It's just south of daddy and mommie's. I can't wait to see it! I'll get pictures of it as soon as the rain stops.
I remember you saying how awesome it was that sister and I did that for them, that it showed how much we love them and how devoted we are to their memory.
Yours is to honor you, as is their's.
I loveyou more than I have words to tell you and oh god, Michael, I miss you so, so much.
bjv 3.25.2017
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On my way home this evening I drove out and got pics of your sign. It's awesome! I sent Matthew a pic of it, he really likes it. I know that you're pleased with it as you always loved it when I did out of the ordinary things for you. Now that I think about it we both did that in our gifts to each other. I'll always cherish the dolphin light you got me... think tuna... was your hint, you suck at hints, by the way! lol I love the fossils you got for me at the Discovery store in KC. And the flint axe and grinding stone, you knew I'd love those. I look around my home and see so much of you here. So many great memories here of the two of us, all the hours we've spent here, just you and me, the rest of the world locked away and forgotten.
Til next time loveyou, Michael xox
bjv 3.26.2017
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Byron shared this with me today, you'll like it!!
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bjv 4.8.2017
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It's amazing how just a few spoken words can stay carved deeply and permanently on heart and soul, I can still hear you say those words to me, wonderful memories.
loveyou Michael ♥
bjv 4.12.2017
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I went up to visit you on Sunday. Your stones are awesome. I know that you love your military stone. Matt did an awesome job of picking that one for you.
I love the 'bikie' on the back of your stone, I know you do also.
I've added the pix of your stones to your memorial.
loveyou xox
bjv 05.15.2017
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Deuteronomy 31:6
"Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you."
I really like this verse. Gonna borrow it from you for a while.
loveyou xox
bjv 05.16.2017
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Oh Michael, tonight I found the last letter you wrote to me from Forrest City. I was so afraid that I'd lost it.
It broke my heart to read the words you wrote to me from your heart. I hope you know what those words mean to me.
Time hasn't and won't, I truly believe, diminished the love I have for you. The same love I've had for you for soooo many years. Always & Forever... I am my beloved's and my beloved is mine
06.06.2017
Tuesday
bjv ~:}
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"to mourn is respectful, to remember is holy"
~ The Red Tent
bjv 06.11.2017
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"The world is made round so we will not see too far ahead"
~ Out of Africa ~
I think now more than at any other time in my life this is sooo true. It's a good thing that we CAN'T see too far ahead.
bjv 07.28.2017
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I dreamed of you last night... You were walking south on 13th, almost to the lights at Walnut, I was going north and just as I went thru the lights a guy that I'd just passed spoke to you, calling you by name. I knew by the way you were walking that it was you so I started pullin over into the parking lot of the electric store. That's when you said it...
"Hello sweetness"
Wonder where that came from, I don't ever remember hearing anyone us that pet-name.
I just kissed all over your face... was good to be with you for just those few moments... loveyou Michael, missyou xox
bjv 08.06.2017 Sunday
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♥.. All Of Me ..♥
What would I do without your smart mouth?
Drawing me in, and you kicking me out
You've got my head spinning, no kidding, I can't pin you down
What's going on in that beautiful mind
I'm on your magical mystery ride
And I'm so dizzy, don't know what hit me, but I'll be alright
My head's under water
But I'm breathing fine
You're crazy and I'm out of my mind
'Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I'll give my all to you
You're my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I'm winning
'Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, oh oh
How many times do I have to tell you
Even when you're crying you're beautiful too
The world is beating you down, I'm around through every mood
You're my downfall, you're my muse
My worst distraction, my rhythm and blues
I can't stop singing, it's ringing, in my head for you
My head's under water
But I'm breathing fine
You're crazy and I'm out of my mind
'Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I'll give my all to you
You're my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I'm winning
'Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, oh oh
Give me all of you
Cards on the table, we're both showing hearts
Risking it all, though it's hard
'Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I'll give my all to you
You're my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I'm winning
'Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you
I give you all of me
And you give me all of you ♥
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♥...this song says it all, Michael
loveyou my sweetness xox
09.11.2017
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Remember the ride you took me on... on your bikie? You gave me such a wonderful gift that day, Michael. You told me that whenever I have a bad dream, remember to just 'hold on'. Lately, since you left this world, my life often seems like a bad dream. I take a deep breath and remember to 'hold on' just like you told me to. Just hold on... til next time, I'll hold on... loveyou XOX
B 11.17.2017
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This Is Not Goodbye
Bravely you let go of my hand
I can't speak yet you understand
Where I go now, I go alone
This path I walk, these days of stone
And the angels are calling
I must go away
Wait for me here, silently stay
And don't ask me why
Only believe this is not goodbye
All of my strength, all my desire
Still cannot melt this breath of fire
I go to meet some kind of test
Bury the truth that scars my chest
And the angels are calling and calling
I must go away
Wait for me here, silently stay
And don't ask me why
Only believe this is not goodbye
I gathered all my courage
I shaved off all my fear
With this banner on my shoulder
I hold your essence near
And the angels are calling and calling and calling
I must go away
Wait for me here, silently stay
And don't ask me why
Only believe this is not goodbye
Only believe this is not goodbye
~ Melissa Ethridge ~
...really Michael... this is not goodbye... ♥
12.27.2017
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ksihRX4kPtM
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I have missed you…
...like the parched dry earth misses the life giving rain
...like the darkened mountains waits for the sun to rise once again
...like the retreating night misses the approaching dawn
...in a thousand thoughts, I've missed you in every one
bjv 02.18.2018
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I missyou... I loveyou... to the end of days...
06.16.2018
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09.19.2018
I heard your voice in the wind today
and I turned to see your face;
The warmth of the wind caressed me
as I stood silently in place.
I felt your touch in the sun today
as its warmth filled the sky;
I closed my eyes for your embrace
and my spirit soared high.
I saw your eyes in the window pane
as I watched the falling rain;
It seemed as each raindrop fell
it quietly said your name.
I held you close in my heart today
it made me feel complete;
You may have died...but you are not gone
you will always be a part of me.
As long as the sun shines...
the wind blows...
the rain falls...
You will live on inside of me forever
for that is all my heart knows.
loveyou, Michael xox
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I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While you're far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure
I missyou, loveyou xox
11.18.2018
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just the other day I remembered our 'ding! ding! ding!'... TMI... TMI... remember lol
how I miss how our crazy minds worked
loveyou xox
11.19.2018
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Earlier I was eating a burger and when I got to the middle bite I was reminded of the time you asked me for that specific bite of a burger years ago. I asked you why you wanted that bite in particular and you said it was the very best part of any sandwich. Of course I gave you that bite. I never eat a burger or sandwich that I don't think of you when I get to the middle bite. missyou so much loveyou xox
06.02.2019
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The Thorn Bird…
A story… a legend about a bird that sings just once in its life.
From the moment it leaves its nest it searches for a thorn tree and never rests 'til it's found one.
And then it sings more sweetly than any other creature on the face of the Earth.
And singing it impales its self on the longest, sharpest thorn but as it dies, it rises above its own agony to out sing the lark and the nightingale.
The Thorn Bird pays its life for just one song but the whole world stills to listen...
.... and God in Heaven smiles.
♥ The best is bought only at the cost of great pain ♥
06.14.2019
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Ran across this today, it's something you'll like, I think.
Here is something Every American should know. Until I read this, I didn't know, but I checked it out and it's true:
We in the United States have all heard the haunting song, 'Taps...' It's the song that gives us the lump in our throats and usually tears in our eyes.
But, do you know the story behind the song? If not, I think you will be interested to find out about its humble beginnings.
Reportedly, it all began in 1862 during the Civil War, when Union Army Captain Robert Elli was with his men near Harrison's Landing in Virginia. The Confederate Army was on the other side of the narrow strip of land.
During the night, Captain Elli heard the moans of a soldier who lay severely wounded on the field. Not knowing if it was a Union or Confederate soldier, the Captain decided to risk his life and bring the stricken man back for medical attention. Crawling on his stomach through the gunfire, the Captain reached the stricken soldier and began pulling him toward his encampment..
When the Captain finally reached his own lines, he discovered it was actually a Confederate soldier, but the soldier was dead.
The Captain lit a lantern and suddenly caught his breath and went numb with shock. In the dim light, he saw the face of the soldier. It was his own son. The boy had been studying music in the South when the war broke out.. Without telling his father, the boy enlisted in the Confederate Army.
The following morning, heartbroken, the father asked permission of his superiors to give his son a full military burial, despite his enemy status. His request was only partially granted.
The Captain had asked if he could have a group of Army band members play a funeral dirge for his son at the funeral.
The request was turned down since the soldier was a Confederate.
But, out of respect for the father, they did say they could give him only one musician.
The Captain chose a bugler. He asked the bugler to play a series of musical notes he had found on a piece of paper in the pocket of the dead youth's uniform.
This wish was granted.
The haunting melody, we now know as 'Taps' used at military funerals was born.
The words are:
Day is done.
Gone the sun.
From the lakes
From the hills.
From the sky.
All is well.
Safely rest.
God is nigh.
Fading light.
Dims the sight.
And a star.
Gems the sky.
Gleaming bright.
From afar.
Drawing nigh.
Falls the night.
Thanks and praise.
For our days.
Neath the sun
Neath the stars.
Neath the sky
As we go.
This we know.
God is nigh
01.11.2020
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Found us another word, I think you'll like it... gogitatin ~ think deeply about something, meditate.
Oh, how I miss our word games. loveyou sweet man xox
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08.17.2021
I met you 34 years ago tonight. Little did I know what you would come to mean to me, how you would change my life.
I wouldn't trade the years we had or the memories we made for anything.
alwaysNforever, I loveyou xox
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09.23.2021
Found us a new word, absquatulate, pretty awesome, huh?
I love it when I find a word like this one!
missyou, loveyou xox
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now my love you've gone away
you were only to me given
to stay with me but for a day
and then you went to heaven
farewell my love for awhile
you're done with earthly care
But oh! I won't forget your smile
that always cheered me here!
06.11.2022
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"Do not stand at my grave and weep
I am not there. I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry;
I am not there. I did not die."
Clare Harner - Immortality, 1934.
10.21.2022
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I will wait,
I am waiting,
and I will love you
with all the love
I possess
until this body
is ash
and I begin my search
for you
again.
~ Tyler Knott Gregson
10.27.2022
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♥ I so loved making you laugh and laugh hard. Because I knew that at that very moment you were the furtherest away from the things that hurt you ♥
01.15.2023
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♥ In the shadow of memories is where I live now. For that is the only place I can still touch traces of you ♥
01.17.2023
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Bye for now my precious love,
I give you up to our God,
With my tears I'll deck your early grave,
And bow beneath the rod,
The pain to me has been severe,
For I am left alone,
God only lent you to me here,
Now He has called you home.
06.06.2023
from an old gravestone, modified by me
I missyou so much, Michael, loveyou ♥
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Sept 16th. A special day in my memories with you¸.✶♥
♥..missyou…still love so much..♥
09.16.2023
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Michael Joe Stubblefield, age 53, of Cassville, Missouri, passed away Monday, November 28, 2016 in Oklahoma. He was killed in a logging accident when a dead tree fell on him.
He was born June 25, 1963 in Monett, Missouri to Ronald and Betty Browning.
He was adopted by Gilbert Stubblefield after his mom re-married. He is survived by Gilbert and Betty (Hyde) Stubblefield, of Cassville, Missouri.
Also surviving are one brother, Matthew Stubblefield and his wife Bri of Cassville, Missouri; one sister, Heather Carter and her husband Chris of Harrison, Arkansas and nieces and nephews, Dustin Stubblefield, Lexi Stubblefield, Lilly Carter, Brantley Stubblefield and Bolton Stubblefield.
Preceding him in death were his biological father, Ronald Browning, one brother, Alan Lee Stubblefield and grandparents, Emit and Mildred Hyde, Chester and Bea Browning and Albert and Ruby Stubblefield.
Michael received his education at Southwest of Washburn School and graduated from Cassville High School.
From July 16, 1981 until July 15, 1985 he served in the United States Air Force, serving two of the four years in Korea.
He had been a rural mail carrier at Exeter, MO. before being sworn in as postmaster at Seligman, MO and then transferred to Eagle Rock, MO.
He later became a self-employed logger.
He was a member of Corinth Baptist Church but would attend Cassville First Baptist Church.
Some of his favorite pastimes were riding motorcycles, reading National Geographic, loved history of people and enjoyed spending time with his family.
Funeral services will be held at 2:00 P.M. Saturday, December 3, 2016 at Fohn Funeral Home in Cassville. Pastor James Weaver will conduct the services.
Burial with military honors will be at Corinth Cemetery in Cassville.
The family will receive friends from 6:00 until 8:00 P.M. Friday at Fohn Funeral Home in Cassville.
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...♥..... I loved you
.....♥...... and I lost you
.......♥....... and I will never be the same...♥
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... Death Is Nothing At All ...
Death is nothing at all.
It does not count.
I have only slipped away into the next room.
Nothing has happened.
Everything remains exactly as it was.
I am I, and you are you,
and the old life that we lived so fondly together is untouched, unchanged.
Whatever we were to each other, that we are still.
Call me by the old familiar name.
Speak of me in the easy way which you always used.
Put no difference into your tone.
Wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow.
Laugh as we always laughed at the little jokes that we enjoyed together.
Play, smile, think of me, pray for me.
Let my name be ever the household word that it always was.
Let it be spoken without an effort, without the ghost of a shadow upon it.
Life means all that it ever meant.
It is the same as it ever was.
There is absolute and unbroken continuity.
What is this death but a negligible accident?
Why should I be out of mind because I am out of sight?
I am but waiting for you, for an interval,
somewhere very near,
just round the corner.
All is well.
Nothing is hurt; nothing is lost.
One brief moment and all will be as it was before.
How we shall laugh at the trouble of parting when we meet again!
~ Henry Scott-Holland
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"What we have once enjoyed
and deeply loved,
we can never lose.
For all that we love deeply
becomes a part of us."
~ Helen Keller
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I thought of you with love today,
but that is nothing new.
I thought about you yesterday,
and the day before that, too.
I think of you in silence,
...I often say your name,
But all I have is memories
and your picture in a frame.
Your memory is my keepsake,
with which I'll never part.
God has you in his keeping,
I have you in my heart.
I shed tears for what might have been,
a million times I've cried.
If love alone could have saved you,
you never would have died.
In life I loved you dearly,
in death I love you still,
In my heart you hold a place
no one could ever fill.
It broke my heart to lose you,
but you didn't go alone,
For part of me went with you,
the day God took you home.
~ Author Unknown
12.22.2016
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when you left...
a piece of my heart went with you...
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When you remember me, it means that you have carried something of who I am with you, that I have left some mark of who I am on who you are. It means that you can summon me back to your mind even though countless years and miles may stand between us. It means that if we meet again, you will know me. It means that even after I die, you can still see my face and hear my voice and speak to me in your heart. For as long as you remember me, I am never entirely lost.
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Some say love, it is a river
That drowns the tender reed.
Some say love, it is a razor
That leaves your soul to bleed.
Some say love, it is a hunger,
An endless aching need.
I say love, it is a flower,
And you it's only seed.
It's the heart, afraid of breaking,
That never learns to dance.
It's the dream, afraid of waking,
That never takes a chance.
It's the one who won't be taken,
Who cannot seem to give.
And the soul, afraid of dyin',
That never learns to live.
When the night has been too lonely,
And the road has been too long,
And you think that love is only
For the lucky and the strong,
Just remember in the winter
Far beneath the bitter snows,
Lies the seed, that with the sun's love,
In the spring becomes the rose
The Rose
~ by Bette Midler
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♥ When they walk through the valley of weeping it will become a place of springs where pools of blessing and refreshment collect after rains
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we never gave up, Michael, we kept trying, we did the best we could, we both did
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you loved this word... prestidigitater ~ magician
12.04.2016
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you'll love this...
"don't use a big word when a singularly unloquacious and diminutive linguistic expression will satisfactorily accomplish the contemporary necessity"
i miss you
12.08.2016
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remember the Cherokee symbol we found that day after our visit to the museum? I have the perfect use for it, I know you'll love it! I do!! Eternal Love ♥
12.16.2016l
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I read an article that I know you'll like.
It was about Stand Watie, a Cherokee. He was a Brig Gen, serving in the Civil War for the Confederacy. He was commander of the Cherokee Mounted Rifles and fought with his men in more battles west of the Mississippi than any other leader.
He was the last Confederate general to surrender at the end of the war.
His name, Stand Watie, in Cherokee means, 'He Stands'.
He is buried in Polson Cemetery outside Southwest City, MO.
Pretty awesome, huh?
Here's a jewel for ya...
oonawich unggi ~ the oldest wind
12.18.2016
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♥ of all that ever was
or that will ever be
the last kiss we shared
is one you gave to me ♥
12.28.2016
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Remember the Cherokee symbol we found on-line the evening after we went to the Native American History Museum in Bentonville? I got it today, you like it, huh? Yeah, yeah, I know... Whatever!!
hahaha you funny!! loveyou xox
12.29.2016
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Sleep my love and peace attend thee,
All through the night
Guardian angels God will send thee,
All through the night
Soft the drowsy hours are creeping,
Hill and vale in slumber sleeping
— Welsh lullaby
01.01.2017
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Always a silent hurt,
many a silent tear,
but always a beautiful memory
of one I love so dear.
God gave me the strength to bear it,
and courage to take the blow,
but what it meant to lose you
...no one will ever know ♥
01.02.2017
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here's one you'll like...
ophidiophobia.... fear of snakes
01.03.2017
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There are still days when I don't know how to feel about your dying, or if I feel anything. It's still not really sunk in, I don't think, that you're not here on this earth any longer. I've known you since Aug 1987 and in all these years we've either been a part of each others lives or we were 'connected' in our special way. Now there's neither, you're just... gone... I catch myself thinkin I should be gettin a text from you or a call, then it hits almost as fresh as the night sister came and told me that you'd been killed. There will be no more for us, not on this earth. Michael, I don't know how to do this, I don't know what life is without you in it. A day at a time, a day at a time... I missyou, I loveyou
01.04.2017
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Michael
on the day of my death
my final breath will whisper your name,
when I close my eyes for the final time,
your face will be the last thing I see,
your voice will be the call
of 'welcome home' to my soul,
my love for you will carry me
to once more stand by your side,
across all the many years...
all the time that may pass,
my heart will find yours
. . . until then
. . . . . 'til next time
your unique B ♥
01.05.2017
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Having a beer tonight, reminds me so of the nights we spent back-roadin, those were the days and nights. Remember the place you took me that night and you built a fire, then you told me about you and a couple of your buddies being there one night and hearing something BIG walkin on the hight bank out in front of where we were sittin on the tail gate of your truck... and I made you go with me to the front of your truck to pee and yes you turned your back. It still makes my heart rate jump just to think of a big kitty being up there on that bank. We had so much fun, didn't we Michael? How I'd love to have just one more night with you. God, I miss you.
01.06.2017
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heretic, rebel, a thing to flout
you drew a circle and shut me out
but love and I had the wit to win
we drew a circle and shut YOU in
... in the end, love & I won
loveyou Michael
01.08.2017
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Nothing Gold Can Stay
Nature's first green is gold,
Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leaf's a flower;
But only so an hour.
Then leaf subsides to leaf.
So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down to day.
Nothing gold can stay
~ Robert Frost
01.16.2017
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"There is s sacredness in tears.
They are not the mark of weakness,
but of power.
They speak more eloquently than ten thousand tongues.
They are the messengers of overwhelming grief, of loss and of unspeakable love."
Michael, I found this just a bit ago... it says it all.
Tears have become a daily thing since you left.
I loveyou xox
bjv
01.24.2017
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Home isn't always a place, a house,
Home is the love and acceptance
I see when I look into your eyes.
Home is the sound of our mingled laughter.
Home is the silence around us when our hearts are speaking.
Home is the two of us... together... alone... even in the midst of a crowd.
Home is wherever we are when I'm with you.
Wait for me, Michael, I'll be home again with you one day.
I loveyou, I missyou xox
your B
01.26.2017
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two months ago tonight, sister came by to tell me you'd been killed. "Michael was killed yesterday."
I can't imagine being in her shoes and having to tell her something like that. My world will never, ever be the same. I miss you so much, I loveyou, Michael xox
your B
01.29.2017
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ಌڿڰۣಌ♥ L٥ﻻ ﻉ√٥υ f٥гﻉ√ﻉг ♥ಌڿڰۣಌ♥
I am my beloved's... and my beloved is mine...
so lonely for you tonight, Michael xox
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Do not go gentle into that good night,
Old age should burn and rave at close of day;
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
Though wise men at their end know dark is right,
Because their words had forked no lightning they
Do not go gentle into that good night.
Good men, the last wave by, crying how bright
Their frail deeds might have danced in a green bay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
Wild men who caught and sang the sun in flight,
And learn, too late, they grieved it on its way,
Do not go gentle into that good night.
Grave men, near death, who see with blinding sight
Blind eyes could blaze like meteors and be gay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
~ Dylan Thomas 1914 - 1953
I think a small part of my shock at your leavin is that I always thought you'd out-live me... I was never prepared to be the one to face this life without YOU...
always&forever your B
02.02.2017
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In all the years that I've lived, I've never loved like I love you...
In all the days I've lived, I've never been loved like I was loved by you...
In all the years to come, I think I'll never find another soul so like mine...
In all the days to come, I know I'll never find another heart that beats as mine...
In all the years and days of my life, my love for you will never fade, will never end, always and forever our love will go on...
til next time...
bjv
02.07.2017
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The Robert Frost poem, Nothing Gold Can Stay...
I've always loved it and the movie, The Outsiders, is one of my favorite movies...
I always thought I knew what the poem was talking about, but the other night I was reading it here again in your bio, my heart whispered the true meaning of the poem to me...
remember the way you and I felt when we'd look at the pics of each other when we were young, you in your Air Force uniform and me in my Antler Maid pic... the aching tenderness we felt looking at those pics... how it 'hurt' us deep inside to look at'em... that, I think, is exactly what that poem is talking about, in those pics and for a short time in our young, innocent lives, before the world had left scars on our heart and soul, we were 'gold'. Our hearts saw that innocence, our 'golden' days in those two pictures. I don't think our minds ever quite put words to it but oh yes, our hearts knew. I love those pics of us, they are two of my favorites and yes my heart still aches when I look at the one of you. You'd mentioned not long ago about how you felt when you saw the pic of me, that you loved the pic but hated to look at it, it 'hurt' you to look at it.
Nothing Gold Can Stay... loveyou, Michael xox
B 02.08.2017
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"What was good and what was ill,
what would save and what would kill.
Thus gone, amongst you I may live,
and dead, yet speak and counsel give.
Farewell my birds, farewell, adieu,
I happy am, if well with you."
~ Anne Bradstreet
I am happy that you're in a place that no one is able to hurt you, to torment you, to touch you in any way.
I miss you soooo very much, though.
loveyou xox
bjv 2.16.2017
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"We're all travelers in this world. From the sweet grass to the packing house. Birth 'til death. We travel between the eternities." ~ Prentice Ritter (Robert Duvall)
Remembering the night I was watching this movie, Broken Trail, all I told you was the name of the movie and you remembered it was about some Chinese girls and Robert Duvall was in it, a cowboy watching out for them. I was always amazed by your memory. I sent you the quote, you really liked it!
02.25.2017
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...gently they go,
the beautiful,
the tender,
the kind...
I know.
But I do not approve.
I am not resigned...
~ by Edna St. Vincent Millay
loveyou xox
02.28.2017
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Your adopt-a-hiway memorial sign was installed on the 27 of Feb. It's just south of daddy and mommie's. I can't wait to see it! I'll get pictures of it as soon as the rain stops.
I remember you saying how awesome it was that sister and I did that for them, that it showed how much we love them and how devoted we are to their memory.
Yours is to honor you, as is their's.
I loveyou more than I have words to tell you and oh god, Michael, I miss you so, so much.
bjv 3.25.2017
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On my way home this evening I drove out and got pics of your sign. It's awesome! I sent Matthew a pic of it, he really likes it. I know that you're pleased with it as you always loved it when I did out of the ordinary things for you. Now that I think about it we both did that in our gifts to each other. I'll always cherish the dolphin light you got me... think tuna... was your hint, you suck at hints, by the way! lol I love the fossils you got for me at the Discovery store in KC. And the flint axe and grinding stone, you knew I'd love those. I look around my home and see so much of you here. So many great memories here of the two of us, all the hours we've spent here, just you and me, the rest of the world locked away and forgotten.
Til next time loveyou, Michael xox
bjv 3.26.2017
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Byron shared this with me today, you'll like it!!
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bjv 4.8.2017
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It's amazing how just a few spoken words can stay carved deeply and permanently on heart and soul, I can still hear you say those words to me, wonderful memories.
loveyou Michael ♥
bjv 4.12.2017
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I went up to visit you on Sunday. Your stones are awesome. I know that you love your military stone. Matt did an awesome job of picking that one for you.
I love the 'bikie' on the back of your stone, I know you do also.
I've added the pix of your stones to your memorial.
loveyou xox
bjv 05.15.2017
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Deuteronomy 31:6
"Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you."
I really like this verse. Gonna borrow it from you for a while.
loveyou xox
bjv 05.16.2017
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Oh Michael, tonight I found the last letter you wrote to me from Forrest City. I was so afraid that I'd lost it.
It broke my heart to read the words you wrote to me from your heart. I hope you know what those words mean to me.
Time hasn't and won't, I truly believe, diminished the love I have for you. The same love I've had for you for soooo many years. Always & Forever... I am my beloved's and my beloved is mine
06.06.2017
Tuesday
bjv ~:}
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"to mourn is respectful, to remember is holy"
~ The Red Tent
bjv 06.11.2017
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"The world is made round so we will not see too far ahead"
~ Out of Africa ~
I think now more than at any other time in my life this is sooo true. It's a good thing that we CAN'T see too far ahead.
bjv 07.28.2017
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I dreamed of you last night... You were walking south on 13th, almost to the lights at Walnut, I was going north and just as I went thru the lights a guy that I'd just passed spoke to you, calling you by name. I knew by the way you were walking that it was you so I started pullin over into the parking lot of the electric store. That's when you said it...
"Hello sweetness"
Wonder where that came from, I don't ever remember hearing anyone us that pet-name.
I just kissed all over your face... was good to be with you for just those few moments... loveyou Michael, missyou xox
bjv 08.06.2017 Sunday
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♥.. All Of Me ..♥
What would I do without your smart mouth?
Drawing me in, and you kicking me out
You've got my head spinning, no kidding, I can't pin you down
What's going on in that beautiful mind
I'm on your magical mystery ride
And I'm so dizzy, don't know what hit me, but I'll be alright
My head's under water
But I'm breathing fine
You're crazy and I'm out of my mind
'Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I'll give my all to you
You're my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I'm winning
'Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, oh oh
How many times do I have to tell you
Even when you're crying you're beautiful too
The world is beating you down, I'm around through every mood
You're my downfall, you're my muse
My worst distraction, my rhythm and blues
I can't stop singing, it's ringing, in my head for you
My head's under water
But I'm breathing fine
You're crazy and I'm out of my mind
'Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I'll give my all to you
You're my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I'm winning
'Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, oh oh
Give me all of you
Cards on the table, we're both showing hearts
Risking it all, though it's hard
'Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I'll give my all to you
You're my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I'm winning
'Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you
I give you all of me
And you give me all of you ♥
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♥...this song says it all, Michael
loveyou my sweetness xox
09.11.2017
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Remember the ride you took me on... on your bikie? You gave me such a wonderful gift that day, Michael. You told me that whenever I have a bad dream, remember to just 'hold on'. Lately, since you left this world, my life often seems like a bad dream. I take a deep breath and remember to 'hold on' just like you told me to. Just hold on... til next time, I'll hold on... loveyou XOX
B 11.17.2017
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This Is Not Goodbye
Bravely you let go of my hand
I can't speak yet you understand
Where I go now, I go alone
This path I walk, these days of stone
And the angels are calling
I must go away
Wait for me here, silently stay
And don't ask me why
Only believe this is not goodbye
All of my strength, all my desire
Still cannot melt this breath of fire
I go to meet some kind of test
Bury the truth that scars my chest
And the angels are calling and calling
I must go away
Wait for me here, silently stay
And don't ask me why
Only believe this is not goodbye
I gathered all my courage
I shaved off all my fear
With this banner on my shoulder
I hold your essence near
And the angels are calling and calling and calling
I must go away
Wait for me here, silently stay
And don't ask me why
Only believe this is not goodbye
Only believe this is not goodbye
~ Melissa Ethridge ~
...really Michael... this is not goodbye... ♥
12.27.2017
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ksihRX4kPtM
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I have missed you…
...like the parched dry earth misses the life giving rain
...like the darkened mountains waits for the sun to rise once again
...like the retreating night misses the approaching dawn
...in a thousand thoughts, I've missed you in every one
bjv 02.18.2018
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I missyou... I loveyou... to the end of days...
06.16.2018
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09.19.2018
I heard your voice in the wind today
and I turned to see your face;
The warmth of the wind caressed me
as I stood silently in place.
I felt your touch in the sun today
as its warmth filled the sky;
I closed my eyes for your embrace
and my spirit soared high.
I saw your eyes in the window pane
as I watched the falling rain;
It seemed as each raindrop fell
it quietly said your name.
I held you close in my heart today
it made me feel complete;
You may have died...but you are not gone
you will always be a part of me.
As long as the sun shines...
the wind blows...
the rain falls...
You will live on inside of me forever
for that is all my heart knows.
loveyou, Michael xox
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I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While you're far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure
I missyou, loveyou xox
11.18.2018
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just the other day I remembered our 'ding! ding! ding!'... TMI... TMI... remember lol
how I miss how our crazy minds worked
loveyou xox
11.19.2018
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Earlier I was eating a burger and when I got to the middle bite I was reminded of the time you asked me for that specific bite of a burger years ago. I asked you why you wanted that bite in particular and you said it was the very best part of any sandwich. Of course I gave you that bite. I never eat a burger or sandwich that I don't think of you when I get to the middle bite. missyou so much loveyou xox
06.02.2019
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The Thorn Bird…
A story… a legend about a bird that sings just once in its life.
From the moment it leaves its nest it searches for a thorn tree and never rests 'til it's found one.
And then it sings more sweetly than any other creature on the face of the Earth.
And singing it impales its self on the longest, sharpest thorn but as it dies, it rises above its own agony to out sing the lark and the nightingale.
The Thorn Bird pays its life for just one song but the whole world stills to listen...
.... and God in Heaven smiles.
♥ The best is bought only at the cost of great pain ♥
06.14.2019
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Ran across this today, it's something you'll like, I think.
Here is something Every American should know. Until I read this, I didn't know, but I checked it out and it's true:
We in the United States have all heard the haunting song, 'Taps...' It's the song that gives us the lump in our throats and usually tears in our eyes.
But, do you know the story behind the song? If not, I think you will be interested to find out about its humble beginnings.
Reportedly, it all began in 1862 during the Civil War, when Union Army Captain Robert Elli was with his men near Harrison's Landing in Virginia. The Confederate Army was on the other side of the narrow strip of land.
During the night, Captain Elli heard the moans of a soldier who lay severely wounded on the field. Not knowing if it was a Union or Confederate soldier, the Captain decided to risk his life and bring the stricken man back for medical attention. Crawling on his stomach through the gunfire, the Captain reached the stricken soldier and began pulling him toward his encampment..
When the Captain finally reached his own lines, he discovered it was actually a Confederate soldier, but the soldier was dead.
The Captain lit a lantern and suddenly caught his breath and went numb with shock. In the dim light, he saw the face of the soldier. It was his own son. The boy had been studying music in the South when the war broke out.. Without telling his father, the boy enlisted in the Confederate Army.
The following morning, heartbroken, the father asked permission of his superiors to give his son a full military burial, despite his enemy status. His request was only partially granted.
The Captain had asked if he could have a group of Army band members play a funeral dirge for his son at the funeral.
The request was turned down since the soldier was a Confederate.
But, out of respect for the father, they did say they could give him only one musician.
The Captain chose a bugler. He asked the bugler to play a series of musical notes he had found on a piece of paper in the pocket of the dead youth's uniform.
This wish was granted.
The haunting melody, we now know as 'Taps' used at military funerals was born.
The words are:
Day is done.
Gone the sun.
From the lakes
From the hills.
From the sky.
All is well.
Safely rest.
God is nigh.
Fading light.
Dims the sight.
And a star.
Gems the sky.
Gleaming bright.
From afar.
Drawing nigh.
Falls the night.
Thanks and praise.
For our days.
Neath the sun
Neath the stars.
Neath the sky
As we go.
This we know.
God is nigh
01.11.2020
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Found us another word, I think you'll like it... gogitatin ~ think deeply about something, meditate.
Oh, how I miss our word games. loveyou sweet man xox
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08.17.2021
I met you 34 years ago tonight. Little did I know what you would come to mean to me, how you would change my life.
I wouldn't trade the years we had or the memories we made for anything.
alwaysNforever, I loveyou xox
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09.23.2021
Found us a new word, absquatulate, pretty awesome, huh?
I love it when I find a word like this one!
missyou, loveyou xox
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now my love you've gone away
you were only to me given
to stay with me but for a day
and then you went to heaven
farewell my love for awhile
you're done with earthly care
But oh! I won't forget your smile
that always cheered me here!
06.11.2022
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"Do not stand at my grave and weep
I am not there. I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry;
I am not there. I did not die."
Clare Harner - Immortality, 1934.
10.21.2022
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I will wait,
I am waiting,
and I will love you
with all the love
I possess
until this body
is ash
and I begin my search
for you
again.
~ Tyler Knott Gregson
10.27.2022
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♥ I so loved making you laugh and laugh hard. Because I knew that at that very moment you were the furtherest away from the things that hurt you ♥
01.15.2023
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♥ In the shadow of memories is where I live now. For that is the only place I can still touch traces of you ♥
01.17.2023
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Bye for now my precious love,
I give you up to our God,
With my tears I'll deck your early grave,
And bow beneath the rod,
The pain to me has been severe,
For I am left alone,
God only lent you to me here,
Now He has called you home.
06.06.2023
from an old gravestone, modified by me
I missyou so much, Michael, loveyou ♥
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Sept 16th. A special day in my memories with you¸.✶♥
♥..missyou…still love so much..♥
09.16.2023
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Michael Joe Stubblefield, age 53, of Cassville, Missouri, passed away Monday, November 28, 2016 in Oklahoma. He was killed in a logging accident when a dead tree fell on him.
He was born June 25, 1963 in Monett, Missouri to Ronald and Betty Browning.
He was adopted by Gilbert Stubblefield after his mom re-married. He is survived by Gilbert and Betty (Hyde) Stubblefield, of Cassville, Missouri.
Also surviving are one brother, Matthew Stubblefield and his wife Bri of Cassville, Missouri; one sister, Heather Carter and her husband Chris of Harrison, Arkansas and nieces and nephews, Dustin Stubblefield, Lexi Stubblefield, Lilly Carter, Brantley Stubblefield and Bolton Stubblefield.
Preceding him in death were his biological father, Ronald Browning, one brother, Alan Lee Stubblefield and grandparents, Emit and Mildred Hyde, Chester and Bea Browning and Albert and Ruby Stubblefield.
Michael received his education at Southwest of Washburn School and graduated from Cassville High School.
From July 16, 1981 until July 15, 1985 he served in the United States Air Force, serving two of the four years in Korea.
He had been a rural mail carrier at Exeter, MO. before being sworn in as postmaster at Seligman, MO and then transferred to Eagle Rock, MO.
He later became a self-employed logger.
He was a member of Corinth Baptist Church but would attend Cassville First Baptist Church.
Some of his favorite pastimes were riding motorcycles, reading National Geographic, loved history of people and enjoyed spending time with his family.
Funeral services will be held at 2:00 P.M. Saturday, December 3, 2016 at Fohn Funeral Home in Cassville. Pastor James Weaver will conduct the services.
Burial with military honors will be at Corinth Cemetery in Cassville.
The family will receive friends from 6:00 until 8:00 P.M. Friday at Fohn Funeral Home in Cassville.
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