Mike Jackman. He was my very first love. He was very smart, and very convincing about everything. He could make you believe that the sky was green... He was actually "Ahead of his Time"...
He taught me so many things about life. Things that I never realized until many years later. He always wanted to learn....he always wanted to know why things were the way they were......To me.......he was EVERYTHING. I was so in love with him, and believed everything he said. I ALWAYS wanted to be around him, yet there was something missing in his soul.
I tried to reach inside of him to find what it was that was missing for him.....but he would not divulge his inner most thoughts. I gave up on him.......and it was shortly after that... that he committed suicide. He was only 20 years old.
I could not bring myself to go to the funeral....as I was so devestated. It took MANY years for me to come to terms with myself, and visit his grave. When I finally did go, it was then that I discovered that there was no head stone.
His family just buried him, and never went back. When I went there...it was very sad to know that there was no place to put flowers.......nothing with his name on it.....nothing showing when he was born......or when he died, but I knew. It was then that I realized what was missing for him...it was his family.
I think he really wanted love from his family....and never really had it. And it still, after all these years......breaks my heart that he ended up so alone and forgotten. I will NEVER forget him.
I thank everyone from the bottom of my heart, that leaves a flower for him. He did deserve to be remembered, and loved.
I will always love you Jackman.
He taught me so many things about life. Things that I never realized until many years later. He always wanted to learn....he always wanted to know why things were the way they were......To me.......he was EVERYTHING. I was so in love with him, and believed everything he said. I ALWAYS wanted to be around him, yet there was something missing in his soul.
I tried to reach inside of him to find what it was that was missing for him.....but he would not divulge his inner most thoughts. I gave up on him.......and it was shortly after that... that he committed suicide. He was only 20 years old.
I could not bring myself to go to the funeral....as I was so devestated. It took MANY years for me to come to terms with myself, and visit his grave. When I finally did go, it was then that I discovered that there was no head stone.
His family just buried him, and never went back. When I went there...it was very sad to know that there was no place to put flowers.......nothing with his name on it.....nothing showing when he was born......or when he died, but I knew. It was then that I realized what was missing for him...it was his family.
I think he really wanted love from his family....and never really had it. And it still, after all these years......breaks my heart that he ended up so alone and forgotten. I will NEVER forget him.
I thank everyone from the bottom of my heart, that leaves a flower for him. He did deserve to be remembered, and loved.
I will always love you Jackman.
Mike Jackman. He was my very first love. He was very smart, and very convincing about everything. He could make you believe that the sky was green... He was actually "Ahead of his Time"...
He taught me so many things about life. Things that I never realized until many years later. He always wanted to learn....he always wanted to know why things were the way they were......To me.......he was EVERYTHING. I was so in love with him, and believed everything he said. I ALWAYS wanted to be around him, yet there was something missing in his soul.
I tried to reach inside of him to find what it was that was missing for him.....but he would not divulge his inner most thoughts. I gave up on him.......and it was shortly after that... that he committed suicide. He was only 20 years old.
I could not bring myself to go to the funeral....as I was so devestated. It took MANY years for me to come to terms with myself, and visit his grave. When I finally did go, it was then that I discovered that there was no head stone.
His family just buried him, and never went back. When I went there...it was very sad to know that there was no place to put flowers.......nothing with his name on it.....nothing showing when he was born......or when he died, but I knew. It was then that I realized what was missing for him...it was his family.
I think he really wanted love from his family....and never really had it. And it still, after all these years......breaks my heart that he ended up so alone and forgotten. I will NEVER forget him.
I thank everyone from the bottom of my heart, that leaves a flower for him. He did deserve to be remembered, and loved.
I will always love you Jackman.
He taught me so many things about life. Things that I never realized until many years later. He always wanted to learn....he always wanted to know why things were the way they were......To me.......he was EVERYTHING. I was so in love with him, and believed everything he said. I ALWAYS wanted to be around him, yet there was something missing in his soul.
I tried to reach inside of him to find what it was that was missing for him.....but he would not divulge his inner most thoughts. I gave up on him.......and it was shortly after that... that he committed suicide. He was only 20 years old.
I could not bring myself to go to the funeral....as I was so devestated. It took MANY years for me to come to terms with myself, and visit his grave. When I finally did go, it was then that I discovered that there was no head stone.
His family just buried him, and never went back. When I went there...it was very sad to know that there was no place to put flowers.......nothing with his name on it.....nothing showing when he was born......or when he died, but I knew. It was then that I realized what was missing for him...it was his family.
I think he really wanted love from his family....and never really had it. And it still, after all these years......breaks my heart that he ended up so alone and forgotten. I will NEVER forget him.
I thank everyone from the bottom of my heart, that leaves a flower for him. He did deserve to be remembered, and loved.
I will always love you Jackman.
