My name is "Gayle Lee Masters Carpenter". I am the mother of 2 boys...Duwayne and Derek Cruse and 2 grandchildren...a girl who is 3 and a boy who is 15..I lost my son Derek Lee Cruse in May of 2010...Nothing could happen to me that can be as devastating as this...Because to give up a beloved child is the end of life as you know it...His death has altered me forever....and I wonder if I will ever stop, looking for his vehicle to pull in the drive, or stop hearing his voice in a crowded store, or just waiting for him to call me and say...I love You Mom.....

My name is "Gayle Lee Masters Carpenter". I am the mother of 2 boys...Duwayne and Derek Cruse and 2 grandchildren...a girl who is 3 and a boy who is 15..I lost my son Derek Lee Cruse in May of 2010...Nothing could happen to me that can be as devastating as this...Because to give up a beloved child is the end of life as you know it...His death has altered me forever....and I wonder if I will ever stop, looking for his vehicle to pull in the drive, or stop hearing his voice in a crowded store, or just waiting for him to call me and say...I love You Mom.....