The pain of my loss at times seems to be too much to bear. I haven't been in my family members lives except in moments of grief and some of those moments were caused by me. If any of them see this I would like you to know I am sorry for it all and I pay dearly every day. How? Have you ever been banished?

The pain of my loss at times seems to be too much to bear. I haven't been in my family members lives except in moments of grief and some of those moments were caused by me. If any of them see this I would like you to know I am sorry for it all and I pay dearly every day. How? Have you ever been banished?