Lillanna Livia Jo Matthews
Born: April 29, 2002
Died: April 29, 2012
Beloved Daughter of Daniel H. Mattews of Stephanie Jo Hoge

Full-Term Stillborn

When you lose a child,
your Life doesn't just change,
you're shattered on the inside
blown to pieces, your Heart broken.
It takes a lone time for those
pieces to come back together again.
I'm not looking for your pity,
it's better for me to talk,
than to keep everything all inside.
I don't want you to think I'm selfish,
but can't you see how much I'm hurting?
Sometimes I take out my baby's things,
smell them, caress them, hug and kiss them,
and rock them until the tears stop falling.
Please don't turn a blind eye to me.
If you think it's too painful for you,
multiply that by infinity and you might
have a vague idea of how much pain I am in.
I did not ask for this to happen.
I do ask for your love and support.
If you can't think of anything to say,
then just listen to me,
let me borrow your shoulder.
Surely you are stronger than I am,
and can help me by simply being there.

Precious Little One
I`m just a precious little one
who didn`t make it there.
I went straight to be with Jesus,
but I`m waiting for you here.
Many dwelling here where I live,
waited years to enter in.
Struggled through a world of sorrow,
a world marred with pain and sin.
Thank you for the life you gave me,
it was brief but don`t complain.
I have all Heaven`s Glory,
suffered none of earth`s great pain.
Thank you for the name you gave me.
I`d have loved to bring it fame.
But if I`d lingered in earth`s shadows,
I would have suffered just the same.
So sweet family-don`t you sorrow.
Wipe those tears and chase the gloom.
I went straight to Jesus` arms
from my loving Mother`s womb.

Fly Away Bluebird
Fly fly away beautiful bluebird
Fly the wide blue yonder, of god's great wonders
Fly through the heavens, pass the stars of his universe
Search God's home for my loved one
She will be easy to find, she's at the right hand of God She's the one with the brightest halo and the sweetest smile
When you find her, whisper in her ear, tell her I'm here,
Still loving and missing her,
Day after day and year after year, forever,
So fly, fly away beautiful bluebird she's waiting.

A Lament for My Baby
I never got to hear you laugh
you never saw me cry
didn't get a chance to say "Hello"
you never said "Goodbye"
I didn't think that I could feel
so sad, lost and forlorn.
I never knew God chose his Angels
before some of them were born.
Your life was short yet special
I shared it all exclusively
I felt you breathe, I felt you kick.
You were alive inside of me.
Every baby is an Angel
and every angel is divine
God needed one in heaven
He came down and took mine
And although we are not together
we're not really apart
for you'll always occupy a space
deep within my heart.
Time has begun to ease my pain
It's only some days now I cry.
When I wish I could have said "Hello"
and heard you say "Goodbye"

Uncle:
Jonathan Lee Matthews
First Cousin:
Maxwell C. Matthews
Great Grandparents:
Nile Matthews
Dorothy Young Hardy Matthews
Great Uncle:
Roger Mourtisen
Great Aunt:
Margo Lynn Matthews
Great Cousins:
Richadrd Wayne Keys
Edward Jens Matthews

ALL VISITS ARE VERY APPRECIATED