𝐅𝐨𝐫 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐝𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐥𝐨𝐬𝐬… 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐢𝐫 𝐥𝐨𝐬𝐬 𝐦𝐚𝐲 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐟𝐞𝐞𝐥 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐚𝐦𝐞 𝐚𝐬 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐬.. 𝐩𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐫𝐞𝐬𝐩𝐞𝐜𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐰𝐚𝐲 𝐞𝐚𝐜𝐡 𝐢𝐧𝐝𝐢𝐯𝐢𝐝𝐮𝐚𝐥 𝐝𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐬 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐢𝐫 𝐩𝐚𝐢𝐧…𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐢𝐬 𝐧𝐨 𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 𝐰𝐚𝐲 𝐭𝐨 𝐠𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐯𝐞. 𝐈𝐟 𝐟𝐞𝐞𝐥 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐢𝐧𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐩𝐫𝐢𝐚𝐭𝐞….𝐝𝐨𝐧❜𝐭 𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐧 𝐨𝐫 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝 𝐦𝐲 𝐩𝐨𝐬𝐭𝐬.

A tribute to the departed
"Happy Birthday in Heaven" serves as a tribute to the life and legacy of the person who passed away. It's a way to acknowledge their special day and to keep their memory alive. By using this phrase, you can express your continued love, respect, and remembrance for the departed, even though they are no longer among the living.

𝗦𝗵𝗼𝘄 𝘀𝘂𝗽𝗽𝗼𝗿𝘁, 𝗴𝗿𝗮𝘁𝗶𝘁𝘂𝗱𝗲 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝗹𝗮𝘄 𝗲𝗻𝗳𝗼𝗿𝗰𝗲𝗺𝗲𝗻𝘁 𝗼𝗳𝗳𝗶𝗰𝗲𝗿𝘀
Your service is invaluable to all of our community. I personally thank you very much for your service. Keep up the good work of protecting our community. My prayers go out to all of you as you put yourselves in harm's way to protect us from evil or lost people.

𝐀 𝐏𝐫𝐚𝐲𝐞𝐫 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐏𝐞𝐚𝐜𝐞
Lord Jesus Christ,
You are the true King of peace.
In You alone is found freedom.

Please free our world from conflict.
Bring unity to troubled nations.
Let Your glorious peace reign in every heart.

Dispel all darkness and evil.
Protect the dignity of every human life.
Replace hatred with Your love.

Give wisdom to world leaders.
Free them from selfish ambition.
Eliminate all violence and war.

Glorious Virgin Mary,
Saint Michael the Archangel,
Every angel and saint:
Please pray for peace.
Pray for unity amongst nations.
Pray for unity amongst all people.
Pray for the most vulnerable.
Pray for those suffering.
Pray for the fearful.
Pray for those most in need.
Pray for us all.

Jesus, Son of the Living God, have mercy on us.
Jesus, hear our prayers.
Jesus, I trust in You!

Amen.

───── ❝ 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐦𝐞 ❞ ─────

A Shattered Heart Still Beats

"I am living proof that a shattered heart can still beat."

By Maryellen Dennis

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She sits there and thinks to herself how is she supposed to move on. As hard as she tries she can't just throw their love away as if it never existed, if she could life would be so much easier. She knows it's never going to happen. She misses the man she loves the same as she did on the day he died.

Despite a broken heart, I am lucky to have experienced a love so deep that it is worth grieving for.

𝗣𝗿𝗮𝘆𝗲𝗿 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝗹𝗼𝘀𝘀 𝗼𝗳 𝗹𝗼𝘃𝗲𝗱 𝗼𝗻𝗲
Father, I have no words, I cannot express, the things I feel at the loss of my soul mate, my nearest and dearest friend. Please hold me and keep me as I walk this silent road, barren, dry and empty. I trust him into your care, into the fullness of eternity with you. I trust myself into your care, that you might gradually pour new light, hope and resurrection faith back into my soul. You know him and love him dearly. You know me, I need not worry for word, I simply come as I am before you. Amen.

𝗣𝗿𝗮𝘆𝗲𝗿 𝗼𝗳 𝗟𝗼𝗻𝗴𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝗛𝗲𝗮𝘃𝗲𝗻
"Lord, I have to admit that I am restless and unsatisfied. I miss my loved one. There are times I truly wish I was in heaven too. I know that longing for heaven is a good thing, so please keep my mind set on things above where Christ is.

"Yet also help me to find contentment and joy while you have me here in this world. I groan, I grieve, I long to put on our heavenly dwelling, but I also want to be faithful to your while I am here. Lord, my aim is to please you. Grant me peace as I still so greatly miss my departed one. Help me to live in such a way that my thoughts and actions please you, even as I long to be with you and be reunited with my loved one.

"Use my grief for your glory. In Jesus' name, amen."

When You Lose the Man You Love
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When the man you love dies, your whole world changes.

Love in the midst of pain and struggle
I am a griever. I am a survivor. You are probably the same as me--wondering how this enormous giant (grief) ever got ahold of us so immensely?

𝐈 𝐋𝐨𝐬𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐋𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐌𝐲 𝐋𝐢𝐟𝐞, 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐇𝐞 𝐍𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐊𝐧𝐞𝐰 𝐇𝐨𝐰 𝐈 𝐅𝐞𝐥𝐭 𝐀𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐇𝐢𝐦

❞𝑮𝒂𝒓𝒚 𝒘𝒂𝒔 𝒎𝒚 𝒕𝒓𝒖𝒆 𝒔𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒎𝒂𝒕𝒆. 𝑨𝒏𝒅 𝒉𝒆 𝒘𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒏𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒍𝒆𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒎𝒚 𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒓𝒕.❞

He saved me, in every way possible.

Gary changed my life in so many ways. He taught me that even if my past scarred me, it didn't make me unworthy of love. He taught me that love and patience must go hand in hand. Now that he's gone, I feel half of my heart is missing.

He is my soulmate, my very best friend and everything imaginable. I feel overwhelming guilt, as I am sure he is the better half of this union and surely I should have been the one to go rather than he.

I have declined grief counseling thus far, I'm just not ready to accept this...not yet. But I do feel the need to be heard & not seen. I do not think I'll ever get over this loss. I can't imagine life without him, my days consist of day and night. There's no between times, there's no life and there's no color. I miss him with every fiber of my being.

I have wondered the same elusive question...do you ever get over having to face each day without your soulmate? I can't see it.

𝐈𝐟 𝐇𝐞 𝐇𝐚𝐝 𝐁𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐌𝐞
𝐈𝐟 𝐡𝐞 𝐡𝐚𝐝 𝐛𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐦𝐞 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐝𝐢𝐟𝐟𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐭...

𝐀 𝐥𝐞𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐭𝐨 … 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐦𝐲 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞, 𝐰𝐡𝐨 𝐝𝐢𝐞𝐝 𝐚𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐞

𝐌𝐲 𝐇𝐞𝐫𝐨, 𝐌𝐲 𝐁𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐅𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐝, 𝐌𝐲 𝐋𝐨𝐯𝐞. 𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐩𝐚𝐢𝐧 𝐨𝐟 𝐥𝐨𝐬𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐬𝐞𝐞𝐦𝐬 𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐧 𝐈 𝐜𝐚𝐧 𝐛𝐞𝐚𝐫, 𝐓𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐈 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐛𝐞 𝐚𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐬𝐢𝐝𝐞 𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐞𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐬 𝐦𝐞 𝐮𝐩 𝐢𝐧𝐬𝐢𝐝𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐈 𝐭𝐫𝐮𝐥𝐲 𝐡𝐨𝐩𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐢𝐟 𝐈 𝐡𝐚𝐝 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐠𝐨𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐨 𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐞𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐈 𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐫𝐮𝐧 𝐭𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐚𝐬 𝐟𝐚𝐬𝐭 𝐚𝐬 𝐈 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐛𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐚𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐬𝐢𝐝𝐞. 𝐏𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐦𝐲 𝐋𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐚𝐥𝐰𝐚𝐲𝐬 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐦𝐮𝐜𝐡 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐦𝐞𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐞.

𝐀𝐥𝐥 𝐦𝐲 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐞...

Even years later, I can feel your fingerprints on my heart.

𝐼 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑘 𝐺𝑜𝑑 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦 𝑑𝑎𝑦 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑤𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑏𝑜𝑟𝑛. 𝑌𝑜𝑢 𝑡𝑜𝑢𝑐ℎ𝑒𝑑 𝑠𝑜 𝑚𝑎𝑛𝑦 𝑙𝑖𝑣𝑒𝑠 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑎𝑟𝑒 𝑠𝑜 𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑑, 𝐺𝑎𝑟𝑦.

𝐼 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑚𝑦 𝑙𝑖𝑓𝑒 𝐼 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑏𝑒𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑒 𝐼 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑠𝑎𝑤 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑓𝑎𝑐𝑒
𝐼 𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑙𝑖𝑧𝑒𝑑 𝐼 ℎ𝑎𝑑 𝑛𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑘𝑛𝑜𝑤𝑛 𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑙 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑎𝑡 𝑎𝑙𝑙, 𝑢𝑛𝑡𝑖𝑙 𝐼 𝑙𝑜𝑜𝑘𝑒𝑑 𝑖𝑛𝑡𝑜 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑒𝑦𝑒𝑠

I am sorry that I hadn't got to tell you how much I loved you - it was difficult for me. Now that you are free to fly with the angels, I hope you will look back and know how important you are to me.

There are no words to describe the pain. It is a tortured heart that cannot heal, can never be whole again, that bleeds everyday longing for you. No matter what I do, where I go, who I talk to, you are there, in my mind, it never stops.

𝐼 𝑚𝑖𝑠𝑠 𝑦𝑜𝑢. 𝑇𝑜𝑛𝑖𝑔ℎ𝑡 𝑚𝑜𝑟𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑛 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟. 𝐼 𝑓𝑒𝑒𝑙 𝑒𝑚𝑝𝑡𝑦 𝑡𝑜𝑑𝑎𝑦, 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝐼 𝑚𝑎𝑑𝑒 𝑎 𝑝𝑟𝑜𝑚𝑖𝑠𝑒, 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝐼𝑙𝑙 𝑚𝑎𝑘𝑒 𝑠𝑢𝑟𝑒 𝑖 𝑘𝑒𝑒𝑝 𝑖𝑡.

𝐸𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦 𝑚𝑖𝑛𝑢𝑡𝑒, 𝐸𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦 𝑏𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑡ℎ, 𝐸𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦 𝑛𝑜𝑡𝑒, 𝐸𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦 𝑚𝑒𝑙𝑜𝑑𝑦. 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦 𝑠𝑚𝑖𝑙𝑒, 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦 𝑡𝑒𝑎𝑟, 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦 𝑝𝑒𝑟𝑓𝑒𝑐𝑡 𝑚𝑒𝑚𝑜𝑟𝑦...𝑖𝑠 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑦𝑜𝑢.

𝐼 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 (𝐼 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑚𝑜𝑟𝑒) 𝐼 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑚𝑜𝑠𝑡.

𝑥

𝑃𝑜𝑒𝑚𝑠 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑊ℎ𝑒𝑛 𝑇ℎ𝑒 𝑂𝑛𝑒 𝑌𝑜𝑢 𝐿𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝐻𝑎𝑠 𝐷𝑖𝑒𝑑

Pain. Anguish. Heartbreak. These are just a few of the profound emotions you may feel if you have lost a lover to death. Lovers are the most intimate of companions. They know just how to make you feel special and loved, and though they may leave behind many precious and heartwarming memories, their loss leaves a void that is difficult, if not impossible, to fill. They say time heals all wounds, but many doubt the truthfulness of that old adage when faced with the death of such a dear loved one.

I gCuimhne Gary

In the arms of the angel, fly away from here. From this dark, cold hotel room, and the endlessness that you fear. You are pulled from the wreckage, of your silent
reverie. You're in the arms of the angel, may you find some comfort here.

Danny Boy

Oh Danny boy,
The pipes, the pipes are calling
from glen to glen and down the mountain side.
The summer's gone and all the leaves are falling ~
'Tis you, 'tis you must go and I must bide.
But come ye back when summer's in the meadow,
Or when the valley's hushed and white with snow
And I'll be here in sunshine or in shadow ~
Oh Danny boy, oh Danny boy ~ I love you so.
But if he come and all the roses dying
And I am dead, as dead I well may be,
He'll come here and find the place I'm lying
And kneel and say an Ave there for me.
And I shall feel, oh soft you tread above me ~
And then my grave will richer, sweeter be
For you will bend, and tell me that you love me
And I shall rest in peace until you come to me.

— The Beloved Irish Ballad

𝐴 𝑝𝑎𝑔𝑒 𝑖𝑛 𝑎 𝑏𝑜𝑜𝑘 𝑜𝑓 𝑚𝑒𝑚𝑜𝑟𝑦, 𝑠𝑖𝑙𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑙𝑦 𝑡𝑢𝑟𝑛𝑠 𝑡𝑜𝑑𝑎𝑦, 𝐼 𝑟𝑒𝑚𝑒𝑚𝑏𝑒𝑟 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑖𝑛 𝑠𝑖𝑙𝑒𝑛𝑐𝑒, 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑚𝑎𝑘𝑒 𝑛𝑜 𝑜𝑢𝑡𝑤𝑎𝑟𝑑 𝑠ℎ𝑜𝑤, 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑤ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑖𝑡 𝑚𝑒𝑎𝑛𝑡 𝑡𝑜 𝑙𝑜𝑠𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢, 𝑛𝑜 𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑒𝑙𝑠𝑒 𝑤𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑘𝑛𝑜𝑤. 𝐿𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑑 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ 𝑎 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑏𝑒𝑦𝑜𝑛𝑑 𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑓𝑒𝑒𝑙𝑖𝑛𝑔, 𝑚𝑖𝑠𝑠𝑒𝑑 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ 𝑎 𝑔𝑟𝑖𝑒𝑓 𝑏𝑒𝑦𝑜𝑛𝑑 𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑡𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑠.

T̲h̲e̲ M̲e̲a̲n̲i̲n̲g̲ o̲f̲ T̲r̲u̲e̲ L̲o̲v̲e̲

It is sharing and caring, / Giving and forgiving, / Loving and being loved, / Walking hand in hand, / Talking heart-to-heart, / Seeing through each other's eyes, / Laughing together, / Weeping together, / Praying together, / And always trusting / And believing / And thanking God / For each other… / For love that is shared / Is a beautiful thing – / It enriches the soul / And makes the heart sing!

Helen Steiner Rice

Silent Love: True Love Never Ends

"The minute I heard my first love story, I started looking for you, not knowing how blind that was. Lovers don't finally meet somewhere. They're in each other all along."

A quote on how lovers don't finally meet and fall in love but a part of each other is always there in their minds and their hearts. You don't suddenly fall for somebody, you do imagine, dream and picturise that special person in Eastman colour long before you actually get to meet them. A beautiful quote that is as timeless and honest as first love. A must-share with your partner because he or she would've surely had an impression of you long before you became each other's own.

YOUR ANGEL DAY
Again, that day has come. The one dreaded by everyone. The anniversary of the day Your Angel went away. It never does get easier, As the years go by. It is such a difficult day, No matter how hard we try. Thank goodness for the well-wishes Of those we know and love. We really should be happy, They're up in Heaven above. We know that we will see them, In another day and time. And forever we'll be together In God's Heavenly light sublime.

(c)2012vickihansen.

Heavenly Birthday Poem
Anticipation heightens as your Birthday nears – A helpless heart, still broken with a billion, unborn tears. Memories flood my aching heart like the rush of waves to shore – Overflowing into tears 'til I can't take anymore. Thoughts of what should have been filled with sorrow and regret – For, there was no goodbye, when you left and still, hasn't been one yet. I miss you and I love you with all my heart and soul – Happy Birthday In Heaven to the one who made me whole.

𝑌𝑜𝑢 𝑇𝑎𝑘𝑒 𝑀𝑦 𝐵𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑡ℎ 𝐴𝑤𝑎𝑦
𝐼𝑛 𝑙𝑖𝑓𝑒 𝐼 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑠𝑜 𝑚𝑢𝑐ℎ 𝑇ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑡𝑜𝑜𝑘 𝑚𝑦 𝑏𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑡ℎ 𝑎𝑤𝑎𝑦 𝐼𝑛 𝑑𝑒𝑎𝑡ℎ 𝑖 𝑚𝑖𝑠𝑠 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑠𝑜 𝑚𝑢𝑐ℎ 𝑇ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑔𝑟𝑖𝑒𝑓 𝑡𝑎𝑘𝑒𝑠 𝑚𝑦 𝑏𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑡ℎ 𝑎𝑤𝑎𝑦 𝑁𝑜𝑤 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦 𝑏𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑡ℎ 𝐼'𝑣𝑒 𝑙𝑒𝑓𝑡 𝐼 𝑠𝑎𝑦 𝑇ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑚𝑦 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑤𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑛𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑏𝑒 𝑡𝑎𝑘𝑒𝑛 𝑎𝑤𝑎𝑦.

𝐼 𝑤𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟, 𝑖𝑡'𝑠 𝑡𝑜 𝑙𝑎𝑡𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑐ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑔𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡

Rest In Peace my love
Everlasting in my memories
So dearly loved
Time will united us

I will always love you
Never forgotten

Please protect and watch over me
Endless thoughts of you
Always in my prayers
Carry you with me and miss you so much
Eternally yours x

Artwork by MarieSte

"Our grief is as individual as our lives." Elisabeth Kübler-Ross

Quotes by Heavensbook. If I had the choice, I would have given my life for you to live on.

In a heartbeat, I would have given mine to save yours, my love.

• Survival Guilt — "It should have been me."
• Magical Thinking — "If I had done things differently, he wouldn't have died

I am dealing with "Should've, Would've Could've".

He is still gone, yet it seems like to others it matters less the more time goes by. I don't want pity, I just want everyone to know time didn't change things. I still miss him and grief is still with me.

Wish I could have saved Gary

"You saved my life. Why couldn't I save yours?"
— Jennifer Niven

"I'm not sure there's one line I've thought and spoken and cried more than this one: I'm so sorry I couldn't save you. I'm so, so, so sorry.

It should've been me, not you

Because of him im still here

meeting you saved me I wish I could have saved you

There is not enough room in my heart to contain the love I have for you. Love and pain coexist in my heart, struggling against each other, straining for room in the confines of my heart, always threatening to break from its container. I feel the walls of my heart wrenching, tearing. I feel the pain with every beat of my heart...

I can't believe the grief I have. He as my everything. He died suddenly of a heart attack. His death brought me to my knees. I didn't get to say goodbye. There is so many understand questions. Some days I don't want to go on. All I want to do is sleep. I know I need grief counseling. I can barely function. I don't eat well. Every night I tell myself that I will do better tomorrow but I don't. This is the hardest time of my life.

"No rule book. No time frame. No judgment. Grief is as individual as a fingerprint. Do what is right for your soul."

𝗧𝗼𝗱𝗮𝘆 𝗶 𝘀𝗮𝘄 𝗮𝗻𝗲𝘄 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝘀𝗼𝗺𝗲 𝗽𝗲𝗼𝗽𝗹𝗲 𝗱𝗼 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝗿𝗲𝘀𝗽𝗲𝗰𝘁 𝗼𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗿 𝗽𝗲𝗼𝗽𝗹𝗲❜𝘀 𝗳𝗲𝗲𝗹𝗶𝗻𝗴𝘀. 𝗥𝗲𝘀𝗽𝗲𝗰𝘁 𝗺𝗲𝗮𝗻𝘀 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗰𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝗲𝗻𝗼𝘂𝗴𝗵 𝘁𝗼 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗸 𝗮𝗯𝗼𝘂𝘁 𝗼𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗿❜𝘀 𝗳𝗲𝗲𝗹𝗶𝗻𝗴𝘀 𝗕𝗘𝗙𝗢𝗥𝗘 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗮𝗰𝘁!!

Gary, I believe you know what we are dealing with. We don't need this on top of everything else we deal with. Love you!

𝐇𝐨𝐰 𝐭𝐨 𝐫𝐞𝐩𝐨𝐫𝐭 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐥𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐢𝐟 𝐲𝐨𝐮'𝐫𝐞 𝐚 𝐯𝐢𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐦
𝐅𝐨𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐩𝐨𝐥𝐢𝐜𝐞, 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐜𝐚𝐧 𝐜𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝟏𝟎𝟏 𝐭𝐨 𝐠𝐞𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐥𝐨𝐜𝐚𝐥 𝐩𝐨𝐥𝐢𝐜𝐞 𝐬𝐞𝐫𝐯𝐢𝐜𝐞 𝐨𝐫 𝐜𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝟗𝟗𝟗 𝐢𝐟 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐢𝐧 𝐢𝐦𝐦𝐞𝐝𝐢𝐚𝐭𝐞 𝐝𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐫.

𝐒𝐭𝐚𝐥𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐯𝐢𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐦 𝐬𝐮𝐩𝐩𝐨𝐫𝐭 𝐬𝐞𝐫𝐯𝐢𝐜𝐞𝐬
𝐒𝐮𝐳𝐲 𝐋𝐚𝐦𝐩𝐥𝐮𝐠𝐡 𝐓𝐫𝐮𝐬𝐭: 𝐍𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐚𝐥 𝐒𝐭𝐚𝐥𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐇𝐞𝐥𝐩𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐞: 𝟎𝟖𝟎𝟖 𝟖𝟎𝟐 𝟎𝟑𝟎𝟎
𝐏𝐚𝐥𝐚𝐝𝐢𝐧: 𝐍𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐚𝐥 𝐒𝐭𝐚𝐥𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐀𝐝𝐯𝐨𝐜𝐚𝐜𝐲 𝐒𝐞𝐫𝐯𝐢𝐜𝐞: 𝟎𝟐𝟎 𝟑𝟖𝟔𝟔 𝟒𝟏𝟎𝟕

𝗪𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝗯𝗲𝘀𝘁 𝗽𝗿𝗮𝗰𝘁𝗶𝗰𝗲𝘀 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝗶𝗻𝘁𝗲𝗿𝗮𝗰𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻𝘀 𝗶𝗻 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗙𝗶𝗻𝗱 𝗮 𝗚𝗿𝗮𝘃𝗲 𝗰𝗼𝗺𝗺𝘂𝗻𝗶𝘁𝘆?
· 𝗧𝗿𝗲𝗮𝘁 𝗲𝗮𝗰𝗵 𝗼𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗿 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝗿𝗲𝘀𝗽𝗲𝗰𝘁 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗸𝗶𝗻𝗱𝗻𝗲𝘀𝘀

𝗛𝗲𝗿𝗲 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝘀𝗼𝗺𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴𝘀 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝗽𝗿𝗼𝗵𝗶𝗯𝗶𝘁𝗲𝗱 𝗳𝗿𝗼𝗺 𝗱𝗼𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗺𝗮𝘆 𝗲𝗻𝗱𝗮𝗻𝗴𝗲𝗿 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗙𝗶𝗻𝗱 𝗮 𝗚𝗿𝗮𝘃𝗲 𝗺𝗲𝗺𝗯𝗲𝗿𝘀𝗵𝗶𝗽:

𝗗𝗼 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝘀𝘁𝗮𝗹𝗸 𝗼𝗿 𝗵𝗮𝗿𝗮𝘀𝘀 𝗮𝗻𝘆 𝗙𝗶𝗻𝗱 𝗮 𝗚𝗿𝗮𝘃𝗲 𝘂𝘀𝗲𝗿𝘀, 𝗲𝗺𝗽𝗹𝗼𝘆𝗲𝗲𝘀 𝗼𝗿 𝗿𝗲𝗽𝗿𝗲𝘀𝗲𝗻𝘁𝗮𝘁𝗶𝘃𝗲.

𝗙𝗶𝗻𝗱 𝗮 𝗚𝗿𝗮𝘃𝗲 𝗽𝗿𝗼𝗵𝗶𝗯𝗶𝘁𝘀 𝗮𝗹𝗹 𝗺𝗲𝗺𝗯𝗲𝗿𝘀 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝘃𝗶𝘀𝗶𝘁𝗼𝗿𝘀 𝗳𝗿𝗼𝗺 𝗲𝗻𝗴𝗮𝗴𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗶𝗻 𝗮𝗻𝘆 𝗮𝗰𝘁𝗶𝘃𝗶𝘁𝘆 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗙𝗶𝗻𝗱 𝗮 𝗚𝗿𝗮𝘃𝗲, 𝗶𝗻 𝗶𝘁𝘀 𝘀𝗼𝗹𝗲 𝗱𝗶𝘀𝗰𝗿𝗲𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻, 𝗯𝗲𝗹𝗶𝗲𝘃𝗲𝘀 𝗶𝘀 𝗼𝗳𝗳𝗲𝗻𝘀𝗶𝘃𝗲, 𝗶𝗻𝘁𝗲𝗿𝗳𝗲𝗿𝗲𝘀 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗿𝗶𝗴𝗵𝘁𝘀 𝗼𝗳 𝗼𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗿𝘀, 𝗼𝗿 𝗺𝗮𝘆 𝗰𝗮𝘂𝘀𝗲 𝗵𝗮𝗿𝗺 𝘁𝗼 𝗮𝗻𝘆 𝗽𝗲𝗿𝘀𝗼𝗻, 𝗶𝗻𝗰𝗹𝘂𝗱𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘁𝗼 𝗙𝗶𝗻𝗱 𝗮 𝗚𝗿𝗮𝘃𝗲 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗶𝘁𝘀 𝗲𝗺𝗽𝗹𝗼𝘆𝗲𝗲𝘀 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗿𝗲𝗽𝗿𝗲𝘀𝗲𝗻𝘁𝗮𝘁𝗶𝘃𝗲𝘀. 𝗩𝗶𝗼𝗹𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻 𝗼𝗳, 𝗼𝗿 𝗮𝗰𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗶𝗻𝗰𝗼𝗻𝘀𝗶𝘀𝘁𝗲𝗻𝘁𝗹𝘆 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵, 𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗿𝘂𝗹𝗲𝘀 𝗺𝗮𝘆 𝗿𝗲𝘀𝘂𝗹𝘁 𝗶𝗻 𝗮𝗽𝗽𝗿𝗼𝗽𝗿𝗶𝗮𝘁𝗲 𝗰𝗼𝗻𝘀𝗲𝗾𝘂𝗲𝗻𝗰𝗲𝘀, 𝘄𝗵𝗶𝗰𝗵 𝗺𝗮𝘆 𝗶𝗻𝗰𝗹𝘂𝗱𝗲, 𝗯𝘆 𝘄𝗮𝘆 𝗼𝗳 𝗲𝘅𝗮𝗺𝗽𝗹𝗲 𝗯𝘂𝘁 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝗹𝗶𝗺𝗶𝘁𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻, 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗮𝘁 𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝘀𝗼𝗹𝗲 𝗱𝗶𝘀𝗰𝗿𝗲𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻, 𝘀𝘂𝘀𝗽𝗲𝗻𝘀𝗶𝗼𝗻, 𝗰𝗮𝗻𝗰𝗲𝗹𝗹𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻 𝗼𝗿 𝘁𝗲𝗿𝗺𝗶𝗻𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻 𝗼𝗳 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗮𝗰𝗰𝗼𝘂𝗻𝘁𝘀 𝗼𝗳 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗼𝗳𝗳𝗲𝗻𝗱𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘂𝘀𝗲𝗿, 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝘀𝘂𝗰𝗵 𝘃𝗶𝗼𝗹𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻

𝙾𝚗𝚎 𝚘𝚏 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚐𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚜𝚝 𝚎𝚡𝚙𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚜𝚒𝚘𝚗𝚜 𝚘𝚏 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎

"𝚁𝚎𝚜𝚙𝚎𝚌𝚝 𝚒𝚜 𝚘𝚗𝚎 𝚘𝚏 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚐𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚜𝚝 𝚎𝚡𝚙𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚜𝚒𝚘𝚗𝚜 𝚘𝚏 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎."

𝚆𝚒𝚝𝚑𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚙𝚎𝚌𝚝 𝚠𝚎 𝚌𝚘𝚞𝚕𝚍 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚎𝚡𝚙𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚜 𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚙𝚞𝚛𝚎 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝚝𝚘 𝚜𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚘𝚗𝚎 𝚠𝚎 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎.

𝚁𝚎𝚜𝚙𝚎𝚌𝚝 𝚒𝚜 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚏𝚘𝚞𝚗𝚍𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗 𝚘𝚏 𝚕𝚊𝚜𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎. 𝚆𝚒𝚝𝚑𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚙𝚎𝚌𝚝, 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎 𝚌𝚊𝚗𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚋𝚎 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎, 𝚒𝚝'𝚜 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎 𝚝𝚛𝚢𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚝𝚘 𝚜𝚞𝚛𝚟𝚒𝚟𝚎 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚘𝚡𝚢𝚐𝚎𝚗!

Respect each other. - Lessons Learned in Life

We don't always have to agree with one another but it's important that we learn to respect each other. -Rubyanne.

I love hard and I grieve just as hard because if you think about it, grief is a kind of love really isn't it? It's the painful shade of love you feel when the person you love is gone. You can't ask me to stop loving somebody, even if it's painful; it's like asking me not to breathe air. So don't tell me to get over it, don't tell me to move on... and don't tell me I'm wallowing in self-pity because my pain doesn't affect you... you don't have to live with it or feel it every day. So let me deal with my loss in my own way. My grief doesn't mean I'm not coping... it is simply my way of respecting the love I still hold for a person who is gone.

𝗚𝗮𝗿𝘆 𝘄𝗮𝘀 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗹𝗼𝘃𝗲 𝗼𝗳 𝗺𝘆 𝗹𝗶𝗳𝗲 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗵𝗶𝘀 𝗽𝗮𝘀𝘀𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗶𝘀 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘄𝗼𝗿𝘀𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗜 𝗵𝗮𝗱 𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗿 𝗵𝗮𝗱 𝘁𝗼 𝗳𝗮𝗰𝗲 𝗜 𝗹𝗼𝘃𝗲 𝗵𝗶𝗺 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝗮𝗹𝗹 𝗺𝘆 𝗵𝗲𝗮𝗿𝘁

𝙱𝚞𝚕𝚕𝚢𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚑𝚊𝚛𝚊𝚜𝚜𝚖𝚎𝚗𝚝 𝚙𝚛𝚘𝚑𝚒𝚋𝚒𝚝𝚎𝚍.—

𝙲𝚢𝚋𝚎𝚛𝚋𝚞𝚕𝚕𝚢𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚒𝚜 𝚋𝚞𝚕𝚕𝚢𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚑𝚊𝚛𝚊𝚜𝚜𝚖𝚎𝚗𝚝 𝚞𝚜𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚝𝚎𝚌𝚑𝚗𝚘𝚕𝚘𝚐𝚢. 𝚃𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚒𝚗𝚌𝚕𝚞𝚍𝚎𝚜 𝚝𝚛𝚘𝚕𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚐, 𝚖𝚘𝚋𝚋𝚒𝚗𝚐, 𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚕𝚔𝚒𝚗𝚐, 𝚐𝚛𝚘𝚘𝚖𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚘𝚛 𝚊𝚗𝚢 𝚏𝚘𝚛𝚖 𝚘𝚏 𝚊𝚋𝚞𝚜𝚎 𝚘𝚗𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚎.

𝙰𝚕𝚕 𝚋𝚞𝚕𝚕𝚢𝚒𝚗𝚐, 𝚠𝚑𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚖𝚘𝚝𝚒𝚟𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗 𝚘𝚛 𝚖𝚎𝚝𝚑𝚘𝚍 𝚒𝚜 𝚞𝚗𝚊𝚌𝚌𝚎𝚙𝚝𝚊𝚋𝚕𝚎 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚜𝚑𝚘𝚞𝚕𝚍 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚋𝚎 𝚝𝚘𝚕𝚎𝚛𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚍.

𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝙰𝚜𝚜𝚘𝚌𝚒𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗 𝚘𝚏 𝙲𝚑𝚒𝚎𝚏 𝙿𝚘𝚕𝚒𝚌𝚎 𝙾𝚏𝚏𝚒𝚌𝚎𝚛𝚜

𝙽𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗𝚊𝚕 𝙿𝚘𝚕𝚒𝚌𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝙻𝚎𝚊𝚍 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝙰𝙲𝙿𝙾 𝙲𝚘𝚖𝚖𝚞𝚗𝚒𝚌𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗 𝙰𝚍𝚟𝚒𝚜𝚘𝚛𝚢 𝙶𝚛𝚘𝚞𝚙 𝙲𝚑𝚒𝚎𝚏 𝙲𝚘𝚗𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚋𝚕𝚎 𝙰𝚗𝚍𝚢 𝚃𝚛𝚘𝚝𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚜𝚊𝚒𝚍: "𝙿𝚎𝚘𝚙𝚕𝚎 𝚖𝚊𝚢 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚔 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚢 𝚌𝚊𝚗 𝚛𝚎𝚖𝚊𝚒𝚗 𝚊𝚗𝚘𝚗𝚢𝚖𝚘𝚞𝚜 𝚠𝚑𝚎𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚢 𝚊𝚛𝚎 𝚘𝚗𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚎, 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚢 𝚌𝚊𝚗 𝚑𝚒𝚍𝚎, 𝚜𝚊𝚢 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚍𝚘 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐𝚜 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚢 𝚠𝚘𝚞𝚕𝚍𝚗'𝚝 𝚍𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚖 𝚘𝚏 𝚍𝚘𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚒𝚗 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚕 𝚕𝚒𝚏𝚎 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚌𝚘𝚗𝚜𝚎𝚚𝚞𝚎𝚗𝚌𝚎𝚜 𝚘𝚛 𝚋𝚎𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚏𝚘𝚞𝚗𝚍 𝚘𝚞𝚝; 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚒𝚜 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚌𝚊𝚜𝚎.

𝚁𝚎𝚙𝚘𝚛𝚝𝚜 𝚘𝚏 𝚌𝚛𝚎𝚍𝚒𝚋𝚕𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚝𝚜 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚌𝚘𝚖𝚖𝚞𝚗𝚒𝚌𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗𝚜 𝚖𝚊𝚍𝚎 𝚘𝚟𝚎𝚛 𝚜𝚘𝚌𝚒𝚊𝚕 𝚖𝚎𝚍𝚒𝚊 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚜𝚙𝚎𝚌𝚒𝚏𝚒𝚌𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚢 𝚝𝚊𝚛𝚐𝚎𝚝 𝚊𝚗 𝚒𝚗𝚍𝚒𝚟𝚒𝚍𝚞𝚊𝚕 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚌𝚘𝚗𝚜𝚝𝚒𝚝𝚞𝚝𝚎 𝚑𝚊𝚛𝚊𝚜𝚜𝚖𝚎𝚗𝚝 𝚠𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚋𝚎 𝚝𝚊𝚔𝚎𝚗 𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚢 𝚜𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚘𝚞𝚜𝚕𝚢 𝚋𝚢 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚙𝚘𝚕𝚒𝚌𝚎 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚒𝚗𝚟𝚎𝚜𝚝𝚒𝚐𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚍. 𝙿𝚕𝚎𝚊𝚜𝚎 𝚌𝚊𝚕𝚕 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚕𝚘𝚌𝚊𝚕 𝚙𝚘𝚕𝚒𝚌𝚎 𝚏𝚘𝚛𝚌𝚎 𝚘𝚗 𝟷𝟶𝟷 𝚒𝚏 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚔 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚊𝚛𝚎 𝚋𝚎𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚑𝚊𝚛𝚊𝚜𝚜𝚎𝚍 𝚘𝚛 𝚝𝚑𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚗𝚎𝚍 𝚘𝚗𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚎."

𝚆𝚎 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚋𝚎𝚎𝚗 𝚞𝚜𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚖𝚒𝚗𝚘𝚕𝚘𝚐𝚢 '𝚎𝙲𝚁𝙸𝙼𝙴' 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚖𝚊𝚗𝚢 𝚢𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚜 𝚗𝚘𝚠 𝚋𝚎𝚌𝚊𝚞𝚜𝚎 𝚠𝚎 𝚋𝚎𝚕𝚒𝚎𝚟𝚎 𝚒𝚝 𝚍𝚎𝚜𝚌𝚛𝚒𝚋𝚎𝚜 𝚊𝚕𝚕 𝚏𝚘𝚛𝚖𝚜 𝚘𝚏 𝚘𝚗-𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚎 𝚊𝚋𝚞𝚜𝚎. 𝙰𝚕𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚢 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝙿𝚘𝚕𝚒𝚌𝚎 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚘𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚜 𝚊𝚛𝚎 𝚊𝚍𝚘𝚙𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚖 𝚎𝙲𝚁𝙸𝙼𝙴 𝚠𝚑𝚎𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚢 𝚝𝚊𝚕𝚔 𝚊𝚋𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝙲𝚢𝚋𝚎𝚛𝚋𝚞𝚕𝚕𝚢𝚒𝚗𝚐.

❞𝗪𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗱𝗼 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝘄𝗮𝗻𝘁 𝗱𝗼𝗻𝗲 𝘁𝗼 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿𝘀𝗲𝗹𝗳, 𝗱𝗼 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝗱𝗼 𝘁𝗼 𝗼𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗿𝘀.❞ — 𝗖𝗼𝗻𝗳𝘂𝗰𝗶𝘂𝘀, 𝗖𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗮 (𝗰𝗶𝗿𝗰𝗮 𝟱𝟬𝟬 𝗕𝗖)

𝗹𝗲𝗮𝗿𝗻 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗳𝗮𝗰𝘁𝘀

𝗕𝗲𝗳𝗼𝗿𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗮𝘀𝘀𝘂𝗺𝗲, 𝗹𝗲𝗮𝗿𝗻 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗳𝗮𝗰𝘁𝘀. 𝗕𝗲𝗳𝗼𝗿𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗷𝘂𝗱𝗴𝗲, 𝘂𝗻𝗱𝗲𝗿𝘀𝘁𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝘄𝗵𝘆.
𝗕𝗲𝗳𝗼𝗿𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗵𝘂𝗿𝘁 𝘀𝗼𝗺𝗲𝗼𝗻𝗲, 𝗳𝗲𝗲𝗹. 𝗕𝗲𝗳𝗼𝗿𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘀𝗽𝗲𝗮𝗸, 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗸.

𝗗𝗼 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝗷𝘂𝗱𝗴𝗲 𝗺𝘆 𝘀𝘁𝗼𝗿𝘆 𝗯𝘆 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗰𝗵𝗮𝗽𝘁𝗲𝗿 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘄𝗮𝗹𝗸𝗲𝗱 𝗶𝗻 𝗼𝗻

𝗡𝗼 𝗼𝗻𝗲 𝗵𝗮𝘀 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗿𝗶𝗴𝗵𝘁 𝘁𝗼 𝗷𝘂𝗱𝗴𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗯𝗲𝗰𝗮𝘂𝘀𝗲 𝗻𝗼 𝗼𝗻𝗲 𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗹𝗹𝘆 𝗸𝗻𝗼𝘄𝘀 𝘄𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗵𝗮𝘃𝗲 𝗯𝗲𝗲𝗻 𝘁𝗵𝗿𝗼𝘂𝗴𝗵. 𝗧𝗵𝗲𝘆 𝗺𝗶𝗴𝗵𝘁 𝗵𝗮𝘃𝗲 𝗵𝗲𝗮𝗿𝗱 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘀𝘁𝗼𝗿𝗶𝗲𝘀 𝗯𝘂𝘁 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝘆 𝗱𝗶𝗱𝗻'𝘁 𝗳𝗲𝗲𝗹 𝘄𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗳𝗲𝗹𝘁 𝗶𝗻 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗵𝗲𝗮𝗿𝘁.

𝗣𝗲𝗼𝗽𝗹𝗲 𝗺𝗮𝘆 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝗮𝗹𝘄𝗮𝘆𝘀 𝘁𝗲𝗹𝗹 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗵𝗼𝘄 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝘆 𝗳𝗲𝗲𝗹 𝗮𝗯𝗼𝘂𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂, 𝗯𝘂𝘁 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗶𝗿 𝗮𝗰𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻𝘀 𝘄𝗶𝗹𝗹 𝘀𝗽𝗲𝗮𝗸 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗺𝘀𝗲𝗹𝘃𝗲𝘀. 𝗣𝗮𝘆 𝗮𝘁𝘁𝗲𝗻𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻.

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𝙸 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚖𝚒𝚜𝚜 𝚢𝚘𝚞. 𝚂𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚘𝚗𝚎 𝚔𝚎𝚎𝚙𝚜 𝚛𝚎𝚙𝚘𝚛𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚖𝚢 𝚙𝚘𝚜𝚝𝚜

𝙸 𝚋𝚎𝚕𝚒𝚎𝚟𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚔𝚗𝚘𝚠 𝚠𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚒𝚜 𝚐𝚘𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚘𝚗 𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎. 𝙸𝚝'𝚜 𝚜𝚊𝚍. 𝙿𝚕𝚎𝚊𝚜𝚎 𝚔𝚗𝚘𝚠 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚠𝚎 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎 & 𝚖𝚒𝚜𝚜 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚜𝚘 𝚍𝚎𝚎𝚙𝚕𝚢. 𝚡𝚡

... 𝙱𝚎 𝚊𝚝 𝚙𝚎𝚊𝚌𝚎 𝚜𝚠𝚎𝚎𝚝 𝚊𝚗𝚐𝚎𝚕, 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎 𝚒𝚜 𝚗𝚘 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝚐𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚗 𝚒𝚝 𝚒𝚜 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚢𝚘𝚞, 𝚜𝚘 𝚎𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚗𝚊𝚕, 𝚜𝚘 𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚕𝚊𝚜𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚐, 𝚏𝚘𝚛𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛𝚜, 𝚏𝚘𝚛𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛 𝚘𝚞𝚛𝚜. 𝚈𝚘𝚞 𝚊𝚛𝚎 𝚜𝚘 𝚖𝚊𝚗𝚢 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐𝚜 𝚝𝚘 𝚊𝚕𝚕 𝚘𝚏 𝚞𝚜 𝙶𝚊𝚛𝚢. 𝚈𝚘𝚞 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚊𝚕𝚠𝚊𝚢𝚜 𝚋𝚎𝚎𝚗 𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚢𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐 ! 𝚂𝚘 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎𝚍, 𝚜𝚘 𝚊𝚍𝚘𝚛𝚎𝚍... 𝚒 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚜𝚘 𝚖𝚞𝚌𝚑. 𝚡𝚡𝚡𝚡

𝚁𝚎𝚊𝚕 𝙻𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝙿𝚛𝚊𝚢𝚎𝚛

𝙻𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝚒𝚜 𝚙𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚎𝚗𝚝 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚔𝚒𝚗𝚍. 𝙻𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝚒𝚜 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚓𝚎𝚊𝚕𝚘𝚞𝚜 𝚘𝚛 𝚋𝚘𝚊𝚜𝚝𝚏𝚞𝚕 𝚘𝚛 𝚙𝚛𝚘𝚞𝚍 𝚘𝚛 𝚛𝚞𝚍𝚎. 𝙸𝚝 𝚍𝚘𝚎𝚜 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚍𝚎𝚖𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚒𝚝𝚜 𝚘𝚠𝚗 𝚠𝚊𝚢. 𝙸𝚝 𝚒𝚜 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚒𝚛𝚛𝚒𝚝𝚊𝚋𝚕𝚎, 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚒𝚝 𝚔𝚎𝚎𝚙𝚜 𝚗𝚘 𝚛𝚎𝚌𝚘𝚛𝚍 𝚘𝚏 𝚋𝚎𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚠𝚛𝚘𝚗𝚐𝚎𝚍. 𝙸𝚝 𝚍𝚘𝚎𝚜 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚛𝚎𝚓𝚘𝚒𝚌𝚎 𝚊𝚋𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚒𝚗𝚓𝚞𝚜𝚝𝚒𝚌𝚎 𝚋𝚞𝚝 𝚛𝚎𝚓𝚘𝚒𝚌𝚎𝚜 𝚠𝚑𝚎𝚗𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚝𝚛𝚞𝚝𝚑 𝚠𝚒𝚗𝚜 𝚘𝚞𝚝. 𝙻𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝚗𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛 𝚐𝚒𝚟𝚎𝚜 𝚞𝚙, 𝚗𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛 𝚕𝚘𝚜𝚎𝚜 𝚏𝚊𝚒𝚝𝚑, 𝚒𝚜 𝚊𝚕𝚠𝚊𝚢𝚜 𝚑𝚘𝚙𝚎𝚏𝚞𝚕, 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚎𝚗𝚍𝚞𝚛𝚎𝚜 𝚝𝚑𝚛𝚘𝚞𝚐𝚑 𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚢 𝚌𝚒𝚛𝚌𝚞𝚖𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚗𝚌𝚎.

– 𝚂𝚝. 𝙿𝚊𝚞𝚕 𝚝𝚘 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝙲𝚘𝚛𝚒𝚗𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚊𝚗𝚜

𝗜 𝗹𝗼𝘃𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂. 𝗡𝗼𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴, 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗻𝗼𝗯𝗼𝗱𝘆, 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗻 𝘁𝗶𝗺𝗲, 𝘄𝗶𝗹𝗹 𝗰𝗵𝗮𝗻𝗴𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁.

I'm sorry that grief still makes people uncomfortable.

I'm sorry--
Does my grief make you uncomfortable?
Guess what?
Me too.
But my uncomfortable lasts forever,
while yours (probably) lasts
about as long as this sentence does."

I'm sorry if my grief makes you uncomfortable.
I'm sorry if I talk about my loved one too much.
I'm sorry if I post too many pictures.
I'm sorry if I share memories too often.
But wait.
The truth is those memories are all I have left.
So I guess I'm not really
sorry at all.

You DO NOT, hear me cry, nor do 
you see my tears! So, DON'T you or 
anyone else You DO NOT, hear me cry,
nor do pass judgement on me!!! 
" I love Gary with all my heart,"
If that bothers you, then that's 
your problem, NOT MINE!!!
I have a heart!!! 
What's your excuse????

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"To my much missed mother – you were so special to me and even though time has passed it never diminishes your memory and spirit. They live on long after you. Rest in peace."

I couldn't save my mum

Watching someone you love… die? There are no words for how broken that makes a person. It's like waking up from a bad dream only to find out that it's you reality, it's like watching sunlight fade from the sky, like watching death suck the one you love dry, and being powerless to stop it. You may as well try to stop the waves from rolling in, or the sun from rising.In the end, the waves will roll, the sun will set, and death will come. The only thing you have a choice in? How you deal with it…when it does." ? Rachel Van Dyken

Watching my Mom die was the most horrific thing I have ever been through. I love and miss you so much Mom.

The constant hole and ache in my heart for my Mom and the suffering she endured because of dr negligence!!!

I Watched You Suffer I Saw You Die

In tears I saw you sinking, Mom
I watched you fade away –
God alone, knows how I miss you
as it dawns, another day.

Once upon a memory
someone wiped away a tear –
Held me close and loved me
thank you Mother dear.

𝐅𝐨𝐫 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐝𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐥𝐨𝐬𝐬… 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐢𝐫 𝐥𝐨𝐬𝐬 𝐦𝐚𝐲 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐟𝐞𝐞𝐥 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐚𝐦𝐞 𝐚𝐬 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐬.. 𝐩𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐫𝐞𝐬𝐩𝐞𝐜𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐰𝐚𝐲 𝐞𝐚𝐜𝐡 𝐢𝐧𝐝𝐢𝐯𝐢𝐝𝐮𝐚𝐥 𝐝𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐬 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐢𝐫 𝐩𝐚𝐢𝐧…𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐢𝐬 𝐧𝐨 𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 𝐰𝐚𝐲 𝐭𝐨 𝐠𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐯𝐞. 𝐈𝐟 𝐟𝐞𝐞𝐥 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐢𝐧𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐩𝐫𝐢𝐚𝐭𝐞….𝐝𝐨𝐧❜𝐭 𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐧 𝐨𝐫 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝 𝐦𝐲 𝐩𝐨𝐬𝐭𝐬.

A tribute to the departed
"Happy Birthday in Heaven" serves as a tribute to the life and legacy of the person who passed away. It's a way to acknowledge their special day and to keep their memory alive. By using this phrase, you can express your continued love, respect, and remembrance for the departed, even though they are no longer among the living.

𝗦𝗵𝗼𝘄 𝘀𝘂𝗽𝗽𝗼𝗿𝘁, 𝗴𝗿𝗮𝘁𝗶𝘁𝘂𝗱𝗲 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝗹𝗮𝘄 𝗲𝗻𝗳𝗼𝗿𝗰𝗲𝗺𝗲𝗻𝘁 𝗼𝗳𝗳𝗶𝗰𝗲𝗿𝘀
Your service is invaluable to all of our community. I personally thank you very much for your service. Keep up the good work of protecting our community. My prayers go out to all of you as you put yourselves in harm's way to protect us from evil or lost people.

𝐀 𝐏𝐫𝐚𝐲𝐞𝐫 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐏𝐞𝐚𝐜𝐞
Lord Jesus Christ,
You are the true King of peace.
In You alone is found freedom.

Please free our world from conflict.
Bring unity to troubled nations.
Let Your glorious peace reign in every heart.

Dispel all darkness and evil.
Protect the dignity of every human life.
Replace hatred with Your love.

Give wisdom to world leaders.
Free them from selfish ambition.
Eliminate all violence and war.

Glorious Virgin Mary,
Saint Michael the Archangel,
Every angel and saint:
Please pray for peace.
Pray for unity amongst nations.
Pray for unity amongst all people.
Pray for the most vulnerable.
Pray for those suffering.
Pray for the fearful.
Pray for those most in need.
Pray for us all.

Jesus, Son of the Living God, have mercy on us.
Jesus, hear our prayers.
Jesus, I trust in You!

Amen.

───── ❝ 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐦𝐞 ❞ ─────

A Shattered Heart Still Beats

"I am living proof that a shattered heart can still beat."

By Maryellen Dennis

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She sits there and thinks to herself how is she supposed to move on. As hard as she tries she can't just throw their love away as if it never existed, if she could life would be so much easier. She knows it's never going to happen. She misses the man she loves the same as she did on the day he died.

Despite a broken heart, I am lucky to have experienced a love so deep that it is worth grieving for.

𝗣𝗿𝗮𝘆𝗲𝗿 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝗹𝗼𝘀𝘀 𝗼𝗳 𝗹𝗼𝘃𝗲𝗱 𝗼𝗻𝗲
Father, I have no words, I cannot express, the things I feel at the loss of my soul mate, my nearest and dearest friend. Please hold me and keep me as I walk this silent road, barren, dry and empty. I trust him into your care, into the fullness of eternity with you. I trust myself into your care, that you might gradually pour new light, hope and resurrection faith back into my soul. You know him and love him dearly. You know me, I need not worry for word, I simply come as I am before you. Amen.

𝗣𝗿𝗮𝘆𝗲𝗿 𝗼𝗳 𝗟𝗼𝗻𝗴𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝗛𝗲𝗮𝘃𝗲𝗻
"Lord, I have to admit that I am restless and unsatisfied. I miss my loved one. There are times I truly wish I was in heaven too. I know that longing for heaven is a good thing, so please keep my mind set on things above where Christ is.

"Yet also help me to find contentment and joy while you have me here in this world. I groan, I grieve, I long to put on our heavenly dwelling, but I also want to be faithful to your while I am here. Lord, my aim is to please you. Grant me peace as I still so greatly miss my departed one. Help me to live in such a way that my thoughts and actions please you, even as I long to be with you and be reunited with my loved one.

"Use my grief for your glory. In Jesus' name, amen."

When You Lose the Man You Love
♡
When the man you love dies, your whole world changes.

Love in the midst of pain and struggle
I am a griever. I am a survivor. You are probably the same as me--wondering how this enormous giant (grief) ever got ahold of us so immensely?

𝐈 𝐋𝐨𝐬𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐋𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐌𝐲 𝐋𝐢𝐟𝐞, 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐇𝐞 𝐍𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐊𝐧𝐞𝐰 𝐇𝐨𝐰 𝐈 𝐅𝐞𝐥𝐭 𝐀𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐇𝐢𝐦

❞𝑮𝒂𝒓𝒚 𝒘𝒂𝒔 𝒎𝒚 𝒕𝒓𝒖𝒆 𝒔𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒎𝒂𝒕𝒆. 𝑨𝒏𝒅 𝒉𝒆 𝒘𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒏𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒍𝒆𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒎𝒚 𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒓𝒕.❞

He saved me, in every way possible.

Gary changed my life in so many ways. He taught me that even if my past scarred me, it didn't make me unworthy of love. He taught me that love and patience must go hand in hand. Now that he's gone, I feel half of my heart is missing.

He is my soulmate, my very best friend and everything imaginable. I feel overwhelming guilt, as I am sure he is the better half of this union and surely I should have been the one to go rather than he.

I have declined grief counseling thus far, I'm just not ready to accept this...not yet. But I do feel the need to be heard & not seen. I do not think I'll ever get over this loss. I can't imagine life without him, my days consist of day and night. There's no between times, there's no life and there's no color. I miss him with every fiber of my being.

I have wondered the same elusive question...do you ever get over having to face each day without your soulmate? I can't see it.

𝐈𝐟 𝐇𝐞 𝐇𝐚𝐝 𝐁𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐌𝐞
𝐈𝐟 𝐡𝐞 𝐡𝐚𝐝 𝐛𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐦𝐞 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐝𝐢𝐟𝐟𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐭...

𝐀 𝐥𝐞𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐭𝐨 … 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐦𝐲 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞, 𝐰𝐡𝐨 𝐝𝐢𝐞𝐝 𝐚𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐞

𝐌𝐲 𝐇𝐞𝐫𝐨, 𝐌𝐲 𝐁𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐅𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐝, 𝐌𝐲 𝐋𝐨𝐯𝐞. 𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐩𝐚𝐢𝐧 𝐨𝐟 𝐥𝐨𝐬𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐬𝐞𝐞𝐦𝐬 𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐧 𝐈 𝐜𝐚𝐧 𝐛𝐞𝐚𝐫, 𝐓𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐈 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐛𝐞 𝐚𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐬𝐢𝐝𝐞 𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐞𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐬 𝐦𝐞 𝐮𝐩 𝐢𝐧𝐬𝐢𝐝𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐈 𝐭𝐫𝐮𝐥𝐲 𝐡𝐨𝐩𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐢𝐟 𝐈 𝐡𝐚𝐝 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐠𝐨𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐨 𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐞𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐈 𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐫𝐮𝐧 𝐭𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐚𝐬 𝐟𝐚𝐬𝐭 𝐚𝐬 𝐈 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐛𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐚𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐬𝐢𝐝𝐞. 𝐏𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐦𝐲 𝐋𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐚𝐥𝐰𝐚𝐲𝐬 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐦𝐮𝐜𝐡 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐦𝐞𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐞.

𝐀𝐥𝐥 𝐦𝐲 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐞...

Even years later, I can feel your fingerprints on my heart.

𝐼 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑘 𝐺𝑜𝑑 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦 𝑑𝑎𝑦 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑤𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑏𝑜𝑟𝑛. 𝑌𝑜𝑢 𝑡𝑜𝑢𝑐ℎ𝑒𝑑 𝑠𝑜 𝑚𝑎𝑛𝑦 𝑙𝑖𝑣𝑒𝑠 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑎𝑟𝑒 𝑠𝑜 𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑑, 𝐺𝑎𝑟𝑦.

𝐼 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑚𝑦 𝑙𝑖𝑓𝑒 𝐼 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑏𝑒𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑒 𝐼 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑠𝑎𝑤 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑓𝑎𝑐𝑒
𝐼 𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑙𝑖𝑧𝑒𝑑 𝐼 ℎ𝑎𝑑 𝑛𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑘𝑛𝑜𝑤𝑛 𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑙 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑎𝑡 𝑎𝑙𝑙, 𝑢𝑛𝑡𝑖𝑙 𝐼 𝑙𝑜𝑜𝑘𝑒𝑑 𝑖𝑛𝑡𝑜 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑒𝑦𝑒𝑠

I am sorry that I hadn't got to tell you how much I loved you - it was difficult for me. Now that you are free to fly with the angels, I hope you will look back and know how important you are to me.

There are no words to describe the pain. It is a tortured heart that cannot heal, can never be whole again, that bleeds everyday longing for you. No matter what I do, where I go, who I talk to, you are there, in my mind, it never stops.

𝐼 𝑚𝑖𝑠𝑠 𝑦𝑜𝑢. 𝑇𝑜𝑛𝑖𝑔ℎ𝑡 𝑚𝑜𝑟𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑛 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟. 𝐼 𝑓𝑒𝑒𝑙 𝑒𝑚𝑝𝑡𝑦 𝑡𝑜𝑑𝑎𝑦, 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝐼 𝑚𝑎𝑑𝑒 𝑎 𝑝𝑟𝑜𝑚𝑖𝑠𝑒, 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝐼𝑙𝑙 𝑚𝑎𝑘𝑒 𝑠𝑢𝑟𝑒 𝑖 𝑘𝑒𝑒𝑝 𝑖𝑡.

𝐸𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦 𝑚𝑖𝑛𝑢𝑡𝑒, 𝐸𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦 𝑏𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑡ℎ, 𝐸𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦 𝑛𝑜𝑡𝑒, 𝐸𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦 𝑚𝑒𝑙𝑜𝑑𝑦. 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦 𝑠𝑚𝑖𝑙𝑒, 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦 𝑡𝑒𝑎𝑟, 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦 𝑝𝑒𝑟𝑓𝑒𝑐𝑡 𝑚𝑒𝑚𝑜𝑟𝑦...𝑖𝑠 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑦𝑜𝑢.

𝐼 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 (𝐼 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑚𝑜𝑟𝑒) 𝐼 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑚𝑜𝑠𝑡.

𝑥

𝑃𝑜𝑒𝑚𝑠 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑊ℎ𝑒𝑛 𝑇ℎ𝑒 𝑂𝑛𝑒 𝑌𝑜𝑢 𝐿𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝐻𝑎𝑠 𝐷𝑖𝑒𝑑

Pain. Anguish. Heartbreak. These are just a few of the profound emotions you may feel if you have lost a lover to death. Lovers are the most intimate of companions. They know just how to make you feel special and loved, and though they may leave behind many precious and heartwarming memories, their loss leaves a void that is difficult, if not impossible, to fill. They say time heals all wounds, but many doubt the truthfulness of that old adage when faced with the death of such a dear loved one.

I gCuimhne Gary

In the arms of the angel, fly away from here. From this dark, cold hotel room, and the endlessness that you fear. You are pulled from the wreckage, of your silent
reverie. You're in the arms of the angel, may you find some comfort here.

Danny Boy

Oh Danny boy,
The pipes, the pipes are calling
from glen to glen and down the mountain side.
The summer's gone and all the leaves are falling ~
'Tis you, 'tis you must go and I must bide.
But come ye back when summer's in the meadow,
Or when the valley's hushed and white with snow
And I'll be here in sunshine or in shadow ~
Oh Danny boy, oh Danny boy ~ I love you so.
But if he come and all the roses dying
And I am dead, as dead I well may be,
He'll come here and find the place I'm lying
And kneel and say an Ave there for me.
And I shall feel, oh soft you tread above me ~
And then my grave will richer, sweeter be
For you will bend, and tell me that you love me
And I shall rest in peace until you come to me.

— The Beloved Irish Ballad

𝐴 𝑝𝑎𝑔𝑒 𝑖𝑛 𝑎 𝑏𝑜𝑜𝑘 𝑜𝑓 𝑚𝑒𝑚𝑜𝑟𝑦, 𝑠𝑖𝑙𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑙𝑦 𝑡𝑢𝑟𝑛𝑠 𝑡𝑜𝑑𝑎𝑦, 𝐼 𝑟𝑒𝑚𝑒𝑚𝑏𝑒𝑟 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑖𝑛 𝑠𝑖𝑙𝑒𝑛𝑐𝑒, 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑚𝑎𝑘𝑒 𝑛𝑜 𝑜𝑢𝑡𝑤𝑎𝑟𝑑 𝑠ℎ𝑜𝑤, 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑤ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑖𝑡 𝑚𝑒𝑎𝑛𝑡 𝑡𝑜 𝑙𝑜𝑠𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢, 𝑛𝑜 𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑒𝑙𝑠𝑒 𝑤𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑘𝑛𝑜𝑤. 𝐿𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑑 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ 𝑎 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑏𝑒𝑦𝑜𝑛𝑑 𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑓𝑒𝑒𝑙𝑖𝑛𝑔, 𝑚𝑖𝑠𝑠𝑒𝑑 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ 𝑎 𝑔𝑟𝑖𝑒𝑓 𝑏𝑒𝑦𝑜𝑛𝑑 𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑡𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑠.

T̲h̲e̲ M̲e̲a̲n̲i̲n̲g̲ o̲f̲ T̲r̲u̲e̲ L̲o̲v̲e̲

It is sharing and caring, / Giving and forgiving, / Loving and being loved, / Walking hand in hand, / Talking heart-to-heart, / Seeing through each other's eyes, / Laughing together, / Weeping together, / Praying together, / And always trusting / And believing / And thanking God / For each other… / For love that is shared / Is a beautiful thing – / It enriches the soul / And makes the heart sing!

Helen Steiner Rice

Silent Love: True Love Never Ends

"The minute I heard my first love story, I started looking for you, not knowing how blind that was. Lovers don't finally meet somewhere. They're in each other all along."

A quote on how lovers don't finally meet and fall in love but a part of each other is always there in their minds and their hearts. You don't suddenly fall for somebody, you do imagine, dream and picturise that special person in Eastman colour long before you actually get to meet them. A beautiful quote that is as timeless and honest as first love. A must-share with your partner because he or she would've surely had an impression of you long before you became each other's own.

YOUR ANGEL DAY
Again, that day has come. The one dreaded by everyone. The anniversary of the day Your Angel went away. It never does get easier, As the years go by. It is such a difficult day, No matter how hard we try. Thank goodness for the well-wishes Of those we know and love. We really should be happy, They're up in Heaven above. We know that we will see them, In another day and time. And forever we'll be together In God's Heavenly light sublime.

(c)2012vickihansen.

Heavenly Birthday Poem
Anticipation heightens as your Birthday nears – A helpless heart, still broken with a billion, unborn tears. Memories flood my aching heart like the rush of waves to shore – Overflowing into tears 'til I can't take anymore. Thoughts of what should have been filled with sorrow and regret – For, there was no goodbye, when you left and still, hasn't been one yet. I miss you and I love you with all my heart and soul – Happy Birthday In Heaven to the one who made me whole.

𝑌𝑜𝑢 𝑇𝑎𝑘𝑒 𝑀𝑦 𝐵𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑡ℎ 𝐴𝑤𝑎𝑦
𝐼𝑛 𝑙𝑖𝑓𝑒 𝐼 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑠𝑜 𝑚𝑢𝑐ℎ 𝑇ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑡𝑜𝑜𝑘 𝑚𝑦 𝑏𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑡ℎ 𝑎𝑤𝑎𝑦 𝐼𝑛 𝑑𝑒𝑎𝑡ℎ 𝑖 𝑚𝑖𝑠𝑠 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑠𝑜 𝑚𝑢𝑐ℎ 𝑇ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑔𝑟𝑖𝑒𝑓 𝑡𝑎𝑘𝑒𝑠 𝑚𝑦 𝑏𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑡ℎ 𝑎𝑤𝑎𝑦 𝑁𝑜𝑤 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦 𝑏𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑡ℎ 𝐼'𝑣𝑒 𝑙𝑒𝑓𝑡 𝐼 𝑠𝑎𝑦 𝑇ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑚𝑦 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑤𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑛𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑏𝑒 𝑡𝑎𝑘𝑒𝑛 𝑎𝑤𝑎𝑦.

𝐼 𝑤𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟, 𝑖𝑡'𝑠 𝑡𝑜 𝑙𝑎𝑡𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑐ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑔𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡

Rest In Peace my love
Everlasting in my memories
So dearly loved
Time will united us

I will always love you
Never forgotten

Please protect and watch over me
Endless thoughts of you
Always in my prayers
Carry you with me and miss you so much
Eternally yours x

Artwork by MarieSte

"Our grief is as individual as our lives." Elisabeth Kübler-Ross

Quotes by Heavensbook. If I had the choice, I would have given my life for you to live on.

In a heartbeat, I would have given mine to save yours, my love.

• Survival Guilt — "It should have been me."
• Magical Thinking — "If I had done things differently, he wouldn't have died

I am dealing with "Should've, Would've Could've".

He is still gone, yet it seems like to others it matters less the more time goes by. I don't want pity, I just want everyone to know time didn't change things. I still miss him and grief is still with me.

Wish I could have saved Gary

"You saved my life. Why couldn't I save yours?"
— Jennifer Niven

"I'm not sure there's one line I've thought and spoken and cried more than this one: I'm so sorry I couldn't save you. I'm so, so, so sorry.

It should've been me, not you

Because of him im still here

meeting you saved me I wish I could have saved you

There is not enough room in my heart to contain the love I have for you. Love and pain coexist in my heart, struggling against each other, straining for room in the confines of my heart, always threatening to break from its container. I feel the walls of my heart wrenching, tearing. I feel the pain with every beat of my heart...

I can't believe the grief I have. He as my everything. He died suddenly of a heart attack. His death brought me to my knees. I didn't get to say goodbye. There is so many understand questions. Some days I don't want to go on. All I want to do is sleep. I know I need grief counseling. I can barely function. I don't eat well. Every night I tell myself that I will do better tomorrow but I don't. This is the hardest time of my life.

"No rule book. No time frame. No judgment. Grief is as individual as a fingerprint. Do what is right for your soul."

𝗧𝗼𝗱𝗮𝘆 𝗶 𝘀𝗮𝘄 𝗮𝗻𝗲𝘄 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝘀𝗼𝗺𝗲 𝗽𝗲𝗼𝗽𝗹𝗲 𝗱𝗼 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝗿𝗲𝘀𝗽𝗲𝗰𝘁 𝗼𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗿 𝗽𝗲𝗼𝗽𝗹𝗲❜𝘀 𝗳𝗲𝗲𝗹𝗶𝗻𝗴𝘀. 𝗥𝗲𝘀𝗽𝗲𝗰𝘁 𝗺𝗲𝗮𝗻𝘀 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗰𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝗲𝗻𝗼𝘂𝗴𝗵 𝘁𝗼 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗸 𝗮𝗯𝗼𝘂𝘁 𝗼𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗿❜𝘀 𝗳𝗲𝗲𝗹𝗶𝗻𝗴𝘀 𝗕𝗘𝗙𝗢𝗥𝗘 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗮𝗰𝘁!!

Gary, I believe you know what we are dealing with. We don't need this on top of everything else we deal with. Love you!

𝐇𝐨𝐰 𝐭𝐨 𝐫𝐞𝐩𝐨𝐫𝐭 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐥𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐢𝐟 𝐲𝐨𝐮'𝐫𝐞 𝐚 𝐯𝐢𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐦
𝐅𝐨𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐩𝐨𝐥𝐢𝐜𝐞, 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐜𝐚𝐧 𝐜𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝟏𝟎𝟏 𝐭𝐨 𝐠𝐞𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐥𝐨𝐜𝐚𝐥 𝐩𝐨𝐥𝐢𝐜𝐞 𝐬𝐞𝐫𝐯𝐢𝐜𝐞 𝐨𝐫 𝐜𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝟗𝟗𝟗 𝐢𝐟 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐢𝐧 𝐢𝐦𝐦𝐞𝐝𝐢𝐚𝐭𝐞 𝐝𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐫.

𝐒𝐭𝐚𝐥𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐯𝐢𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐦 𝐬𝐮𝐩𝐩𝐨𝐫𝐭 𝐬𝐞𝐫𝐯𝐢𝐜𝐞𝐬
𝐒𝐮𝐳𝐲 𝐋𝐚𝐦𝐩𝐥𝐮𝐠𝐡 𝐓𝐫𝐮𝐬𝐭: 𝐍𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐚𝐥 𝐒𝐭𝐚𝐥𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐇𝐞𝐥𝐩𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐞: 𝟎𝟖𝟎𝟖 𝟖𝟎𝟐 𝟎𝟑𝟎𝟎
𝐏𝐚𝐥𝐚𝐝𝐢𝐧: 𝐍𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐚𝐥 𝐒𝐭𝐚𝐥𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐀𝐝𝐯𝐨𝐜𝐚𝐜𝐲 𝐒𝐞𝐫𝐯𝐢𝐜𝐞: 𝟎𝟐𝟎 𝟑𝟖𝟔𝟔 𝟒𝟏𝟎𝟕

𝗪𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝗯𝗲𝘀𝘁 𝗽𝗿𝗮𝗰𝘁𝗶𝗰𝗲𝘀 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝗶𝗻𝘁𝗲𝗿𝗮𝗰𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻𝘀 𝗶𝗻 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗙𝗶𝗻𝗱 𝗮 𝗚𝗿𝗮𝘃𝗲 𝗰𝗼𝗺𝗺𝘂𝗻𝗶𝘁𝘆?
· 𝗧𝗿𝗲𝗮𝘁 𝗲𝗮𝗰𝗵 𝗼𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗿 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝗿𝗲𝘀𝗽𝗲𝗰𝘁 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗸𝗶𝗻𝗱𝗻𝗲𝘀𝘀

𝗛𝗲𝗿𝗲 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝘀𝗼𝗺𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴𝘀 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝗽𝗿𝗼𝗵𝗶𝗯𝗶𝘁𝗲𝗱 𝗳𝗿𝗼𝗺 𝗱𝗼𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗺𝗮𝘆 𝗲𝗻𝗱𝗮𝗻𝗴𝗲𝗿 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗙𝗶𝗻𝗱 𝗮 𝗚𝗿𝗮𝘃𝗲 𝗺𝗲𝗺𝗯𝗲𝗿𝘀𝗵𝗶𝗽:

𝗗𝗼 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝘀𝘁𝗮𝗹𝗸 𝗼𝗿 𝗵𝗮𝗿𝗮𝘀𝘀 𝗮𝗻𝘆 𝗙𝗶𝗻𝗱 𝗮 𝗚𝗿𝗮𝘃𝗲 𝘂𝘀𝗲𝗿𝘀, 𝗲𝗺𝗽𝗹𝗼𝘆𝗲𝗲𝘀 𝗼𝗿 𝗿𝗲𝗽𝗿𝗲𝘀𝗲𝗻𝘁𝗮𝘁𝗶𝘃𝗲.

𝗙𝗶𝗻𝗱 𝗮 𝗚𝗿𝗮𝘃𝗲 𝗽𝗿𝗼𝗵𝗶𝗯𝗶𝘁𝘀 𝗮𝗹𝗹 𝗺𝗲𝗺𝗯𝗲𝗿𝘀 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝘃𝗶𝘀𝗶𝘁𝗼𝗿𝘀 𝗳𝗿𝗼𝗺 𝗲𝗻𝗴𝗮𝗴𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗶𝗻 𝗮𝗻𝘆 𝗮𝗰𝘁𝗶𝘃𝗶𝘁𝘆 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗙𝗶𝗻𝗱 𝗮 𝗚𝗿𝗮𝘃𝗲, 𝗶𝗻 𝗶𝘁𝘀 𝘀𝗼𝗹𝗲 𝗱𝗶𝘀𝗰𝗿𝗲𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻, 𝗯𝗲𝗹𝗶𝗲𝘃𝗲𝘀 𝗶𝘀 𝗼𝗳𝗳𝗲𝗻𝘀𝗶𝘃𝗲, 𝗶𝗻𝘁𝗲𝗿𝗳𝗲𝗿𝗲𝘀 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗿𝗶𝗴𝗵𝘁𝘀 𝗼𝗳 𝗼𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗿𝘀, 𝗼𝗿 𝗺𝗮𝘆 𝗰𝗮𝘂𝘀𝗲 𝗵𝗮𝗿𝗺 𝘁𝗼 𝗮𝗻𝘆 𝗽𝗲𝗿𝘀𝗼𝗻, 𝗶𝗻𝗰𝗹𝘂𝗱𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘁𝗼 𝗙𝗶𝗻𝗱 𝗮 𝗚𝗿𝗮𝘃𝗲 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗶𝘁𝘀 𝗲𝗺𝗽𝗹𝗼𝘆𝗲𝗲𝘀 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗿𝗲𝗽𝗿𝗲𝘀𝗲𝗻𝘁𝗮𝘁𝗶𝘃𝗲𝘀. 𝗩𝗶𝗼𝗹𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻 𝗼𝗳, 𝗼𝗿 𝗮𝗰𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗶𝗻𝗰𝗼𝗻𝘀𝗶𝘀𝘁𝗲𝗻𝘁𝗹𝘆 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵, 𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗿𝘂𝗹𝗲𝘀 𝗺𝗮𝘆 𝗿𝗲𝘀𝘂𝗹𝘁 𝗶𝗻 𝗮𝗽𝗽𝗿𝗼𝗽𝗿𝗶𝗮𝘁𝗲 𝗰𝗼𝗻𝘀𝗲𝗾𝘂𝗲𝗻𝗰𝗲𝘀, 𝘄𝗵𝗶𝗰𝗵 𝗺𝗮𝘆 𝗶𝗻𝗰𝗹𝘂𝗱𝗲, 𝗯𝘆 𝘄𝗮𝘆 𝗼𝗳 𝗲𝘅𝗮𝗺𝗽𝗹𝗲 𝗯𝘂𝘁 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝗹𝗶𝗺𝗶𝘁𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻, 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗮𝘁 𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝘀𝗼𝗹𝗲 𝗱𝗶𝘀𝗰𝗿𝗲𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻, 𝘀𝘂𝘀𝗽𝗲𝗻𝘀𝗶𝗼𝗻, 𝗰𝗮𝗻𝗰𝗲𝗹𝗹𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻 𝗼𝗿 𝘁𝗲𝗿𝗺𝗶𝗻𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻 𝗼𝗳 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗮𝗰𝗰𝗼𝘂𝗻𝘁𝘀 𝗼𝗳 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗼𝗳𝗳𝗲𝗻𝗱𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘂𝘀𝗲𝗿, 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝘀𝘂𝗰𝗵 𝘃𝗶𝗼𝗹𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻

𝙾𝚗𝚎 𝚘𝚏 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚐𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚜𝚝 𝚎𝚡𝚙𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚜𝚒𝚘𝚗𝚜 𝚘𝚏 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎

"𝚁𝚎𝚜𝚙𝚎𝚌𝚝 𝚒𝚜 𝚘𝚗𝚎 𝚘𝚏 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚐𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚜𝚝 𝚎𝚡𝚙𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚜𝚒𝚘𝚗𝚜 𝚘𝚏 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎."

𝚆𝚒𝚝𝚑𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚙𝚎𝚌𝚝 𝚠𝚎 𝚌𝚘𝚞𝚕𝚍 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚎𝚡𝚙𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚜 𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚙𝚞𝚛𝚎 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝚝𝚘 𝚜𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚘𝚗𝚎 𝚠𝚎 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎.

𝚁𝚎𝚜𝚙𝚎𝚌𝚝 𝚒𝚜 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚏𝚘𝚞𝚗𝚍𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗 𝚘𝚏 𝚕𝚊𝚜𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎. 𝚆𝚒𝚝𝚑𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚙𝚎𝚌𝚝, 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎 𝚌𝚊𝚗𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚋𝚎 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎, 𝚒𝚝'𝚜 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎 𝚝𝚛𝚢𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚝𝚘 𝚜𝚞𝚛𝚟𝚒𝚟𝚎 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚘𝚡𝚢𝚐𝚎𝚗!

Respect each other. - Lessons Learned in Life

We don't always have to agree with one another but it's important that we learn to respect each other. -Rubyanne.

I love hard and I grieve just as hard because if you think about it, grief is a kind of love really isn't it? It's the painful shade of love you feel when the person you love is gone. You can't ask me to stop loving somebody, even if it's painful; it's like asking me not to breathe air. So don't tell me to get over it, don't tell me to move on... and don't tell me I'm wallowing in self-pity because my pain doesn't affect you... you don't have to live with it or feel it every day. So let me deal with my loss in my own way. My grief doesn't mean I'm not coping... it is simply my way of respecting the love I still hold for a person who is gone.

𝗚𝗮𝗿𝘆 𝘄𝗮𝘀 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗹𝗼𝘃𝗲 𝗼𝗳 𝗺𝘆 𝗹𝗶𝗳𝗲 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗵𝗶𝘀 𝗽𝗮𝘀𝘀𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗶𝘀 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘄𝗼𝗿𝘀𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗜 𝗵𝗮𝗱 𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗿 𝗵𝗮𝗱 𝘁𝗼 𝗳𝗮𝗰𝗲 𝗜 𝗹𝗼𝘃𝗲 𝗵𝗶𝗺 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝗮𝗹𝗹 𝗺𝘆 𝗵𝗲𝗮𝗿𝘁

𝙱𝚞𝚕𝚕𝚢𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚑𝚊𝚛𝚊𝚜𝚜𝚖𝚎𝚗𝚝 𝚙𝚛𝚘𝚑𝚒𝚋𝚒𝚝𝚎𝚍.—

𝙲𝚢𝚋𝚎𝚛𝚋𝚞𝚕𝚕𝚢𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚒𝚜 𝚋𝚞𝚕𝚕𝚢𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚑𝚊𝚛𝚊𝚜𝚜𝚖𝚎𝚗𝚝 𝚞𝚜𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚝𝚎𝚌𝚑𝚗𝚘𝚕𝚘𝚐𝚢. 𝚃𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚒𝚗𝚌𝚕𝚞𝚍𝚎𝚜 𝚝𝚛𝚘𝚕𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚐, 𝚖𝚘𝚋𝚋𝚒𝚗𝚐, 𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚕𝚔𝚒𝚗𝚐, 𝚐𝚛𝚘𝚘𝚖𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚘𝚛 𝚊𝚗𝚢 𝚏𝚘𝚛𝚖 𝚘𝚏 𝚊𝚋𝚞𝚜𝚎 𝚘𝚗𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚎.

𝙰𝚕𝚕 𝚋𝚞𝚕𝚕𝚢𝚒𝚗𝚐, 𝚠𝚑𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚖𝚘𝚝𝚒𝚟𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗 𝚘𝚛 𝚖𝚎𝚝𝚑𝚘𝚍 𝚒𝚜 𝚞𝚗𝚊𝚌𝚌𝚎𝚙𝚝𝚊𝚋𝚕𝚎 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚜𝚑𝚘𝚞𝚕𝚍 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚋𝚎 𝚝𝚘𝚕𝚎𝚛𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚍.

𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝙰𝚜𝚜𝚘𝚌𝚒𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗 𝚘𝚏 𝙲𝚑𝚒𝚎𝚏 𝙿𝚘𝚕𝚒𝚌𝚎 𝙾𝚏𝚏𝚒𝚌𝚎𝚛𝚜

𝙽𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗𝚊𝚕 𝙿𝚘𝚕𝚒𝚌𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝙻𝚎𝚊𝚍 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝙰𝙲𝙿𝙾 𝙲𝚘𝚖𝚖𝚞𝚗𝚒𝚌𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗 𝙰𝚍𝚟𝚒𝚜𝚘𝚛𝚢 𝙶𝚛𝚘𝚞𝚙 𝙲𝚑𝚒𝚎𝚏 𝙲𝚘𝚗𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚋𝚕𝚎 𝙰𝚗𝚍𝚢 𝚃𝚛𝚘𝚝𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚜𝚊𝚒𝚍: "𝙿𝚎𝚘𝚙𝚕𝚎 𝚖𝚊𝚢 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚔 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚢 𝚌𝚊𝚗 𝚛𝚎𝚖𝚊𝚒𝚗 𝚊𝚗𝚘𝚗𝚢𝚖𝚘𝚞𝚜 𝚠𝚑𝚎𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚢 𝚊𝚛𝚎 𝚘𝚗𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚎, 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚢 𝚌𝚊𝚗 𝚑𝚒𝚍𝚎, 𝚜𝚊𝚢 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚍𝚘 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐𝚜 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚢 𝚠𝚘𝚞𝚕𝚍𝚗'𝚝 𝚍𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚖 𝚘𝚏 𝚍𝚘𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚒𝚗 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚕 𝚕𝚒𝚏𝚎 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚌𝚘𝚗𝚜𝚎𝚚𝚞𝚎𝚗𝚌𝚎𝚜 𝚘𝚛 𝚋𝚎𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚏𝚘𝚞𝚗𝚍 𝚘𝚞𝚝; 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚒𝚜 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚌𝚊𝚜𝚎.

𝚁𝚎𝚙𝚘𝚛𝚝𝚜 𝚘𝚏 𝚌𝚛𝚎𝚍𝚒𝚋𝚕𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚝𝚜 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚌𝚘𝚖𝚖𝚞𝚗𝚒𝚌𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗𝚜 𝚖𝚊𝚍𝚎 𝚘𝚟𝚎𝚛 𝚜𝚘𝚌𝚒𝚊𝚕 𝚖𝚎𝚍𝚒𝚊 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚜𝚙𝚎𝚌𝚒𝚏𝚒𝚌𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚢 𝚝𝚊𝚛𝚐𝚎𝚝 𝚊𝚗 𝚒𝚗𝚍𝚒𝚟𝚒𝚍𝚞𝚊𝚕 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚌𝚘𝚗𝚜𝚝𝚒𝚝𝚞𝚝𝚎 𝚑𝚊𝚛𝚊𝚜𝚜𝚖𝚎𝚗𝚝 𝚠𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚋𝚎 𝚝𝚊𝚔𝚎𝚗 𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚢 𝚜𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚘𝚞𝚜𝚕𝚢 𝚋𝚢 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚙𝚘𝚕𝚒𝚌𝚎 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚒𝚗𝚟𝚎𝚜𝚝𝚒𝚐𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚍. 𝙿𝚕𝚎𝚊𝚜𝚎 𝚌𝚊𝚕𝚕 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚕𝚘𝚌𝚊𝚕 𝚙𝚘𝚕𝚒𝚌𝚎 𝚏𝚘𝚛𝚌𝚎 𝚘𝚗 𝟷𝟶𝟷 𝚒𝚏 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚔 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚊𝚛𝚎 𝚋𝚎𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚑𝚊𝚛𝚊𝚜𝚜𝚎𝚍 𝚘𝚛 𝚝𝚑𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚗𝚎𝚍 𝚘𝚗𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚎."

𝚆𝚎 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚋𝚎𝚎𝚗 𝚞𝚜𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚖𝚒𝚗𝚘𝚕𝚘𝚐𝚢 '𝚎𝙲𝚁𝙸𝙼𝙴' 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚖𝚊𝚗𝚢 𝚢𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚜 𝚗𝚘𝚠 𝚋𝚎𝚌𝚊𝚞𝚜𝚎 𝚠𝚎 𝚋𝚎𝚕𝚒𝚎𝚟𝚎 𝚒𝚝 𝚍𝚎𝚜𝚌𝚛𝚒𝚋𝚎𝚜 𝚊𝚕𝚕 𝚏𝚘𝚛𝚖𝚜 𝚘𝚏 𝚘𝚗-𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚎 𝚊𝚋𝚞𝚜𝚎. 𝙰𝚕𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚢 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝙿𝚘𝚕𝚒𝚌𝚎 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚘𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚜 𝚊𝚛𝚎 𝚊𝚍𝚘𝚙𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚖 𝚎𝙲𝚁𝙸𝙼𝙴 𝚠𝚑𝚎𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚢 𝚝𝚊𝚕𝚔 𝚊𝚋𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝙲𝚢𝚋𝚎𝚛𝚋𝚞𝚕𝚕𝚢𝚒𝚗𝚐.

❞𝗪𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗱𝗼 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝘄𝗮𝗻𝘁 𝗱𝗼𝗻𝗲 𝘁𝗼 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿𝘀𝗲𝗹𝗳, 𝗱𝗼 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝗱𝗼 𝘁𝗼 𝗼𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗿𝘀.❞ — 𝗖𝗼𝗻𝗳𝘂𝗰𝗶𝘂𝘀, 𝗖𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗮 (𝗰𝗶𝗿𝗰𝗮 𝟱𝟬𝟬 𝗕𝗖)

𝗹𝗲𝗮𝗿𝗻 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗳𝗮𝗰𝘁𝘀

𝗕𝗲𝗳𝗼𝗿𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗮𝘀𝘀𝘂𝗺𝗲, 𝗹𝗲𝗮𝗿𝗻 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗳𝗮𝗰𝘁𝘀. 𝗕𝗲𝗳𝗼𝗿𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗷𝘂𝗱𝗴𝗲, 𝘂𝗻𝗱𝗲𝗿𝘀𝘁𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝘄𝗵𝘆.
𝗕𝗲𝗳𝗼𝗿𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗵𝘂𝗿𝘁 𝘀𝗼𝗺𝗲𝗼𝗻𝗲, 𝗳𝗲𝗲𝗹. 𝗕𝗲𝗳𝗼𝗿𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘀𝗽𝗲𝗮𝗸, 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗸.

𝗗𝗼 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝗷𝘂𝗱𝗴𝗲 𝗺𝘆 𝘀𝘁𝗼𝗿𝘆 𝗯𝘆 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗰𝗵𝗮𝗽𝘁𝗲𝗿 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘄𝗮𝗹𝗸𝗲𝗱 𝗶𝗻 𝗼𝗻

𝗡𝗼 𝗼𝗻𝗲 𝗵𝗮𝘀 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗿𝗶𝗴𝗵𝘁 𝘁𝗼 𝗷𝘂𝗱𝗴𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗯𝗲𝗰𝗮𝘂𝘀𝗲 𝗻𝗼 𝗼𝗻𝗲 𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗹𝗹𝘆 𝗸𝗻𝗼𝘄𝘀 𝘄𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗵𝗮𝘃𝗲 𝗯𝗲𝗲𝗻 𝘁𝗵𝗿𝗼𝘂𝗴𝗵. 𝗧𝗵𝗲𝘆 𝗺𝗶𝗴𝗵𝘁 𝗵𝗮𝘃𝗲 𝗵𝗲𝗮𝗿𝗱 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘀𝘁𝗼𝗿𝗶𝗲𝘀 𝗯𝘂𝘁 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝘆 𝗱𝗶𝗱𝗻'𝘁 𝗳𝗲𝗲𝗹 𝘄𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗳𝗲𝗹𝘁 𝗶𝗻 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗵𝗲𝗮𝗿𝘁.

𝗣𝗲𝗼𝗽𝗹𝗲 𝗺𝗮𝘆 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝗮𝗹𝘄𝗮𝘆𝘀 𝘁𝗲𝗹𝗹 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗵𝗼𝘄 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝘆 𝗳𝗲𝗲𝗹 𝗮𝗯𝗼𝘂𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂, 𝗯𝘂𝘁 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗶𝗿 𝗮𝗰𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻𝘀 𝘄𝗶𝗹𝗹 𝘀𝗽𝗲𝗮𝗸 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗺𝘀𝗲𝗹𝘃𝗲𝘀. 𝗣𝗮𝘆 𝗮𝘁𝘁𝗲𝗻𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻.

•••••••••••••••✿৲(✿•••••••••••••••
Your Garden filled with Love
•••••••••••••••✿৲(✿•••••••••••••••

𝙸 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚖𝚒𝚜𝚜 𝚢𝚘𝚞. 𝚂𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚘𝚗𝚎 𝚔𝚎𝚎𝚙𝚜 𝚛𝚎𝚙𝚘𝚛𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚖𝚢 𝚙𝚘𝚜𝚝𝚜

𝙸 𝚋𝚎𝚕𝚒𝚎𝚟𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚔𝚗𝚘𝚠 𝚠𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚒𝚜 𝚐𝚘𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚘𝚗 𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎. 𝙸𝚝'𝚜 𝚜𝚊𝚍. 𝙿𝚕𝚎𝚊𝚜𝚎 𝚔𝚗𝚘𝚠 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚠𝚎 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎 & 𝚖𝚒𝚜𝚜 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚜𝚘 𝚍𝚎𝚎𝚙𝚕𝚢. 𝚡𝚡

... 𝙱𝚎 𝚊𝚝 𝚙𝚎𝚊𝚌𝚎 𝚜𝚠𝚎𝚎𝚝 𝚊𝚗𝚐𝚎𝚕, 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎 𝚒𝚜 𝚗𝚘 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝚐𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚗 𝚒𝚝 𝚒𝚜 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚢𝚘𝚞, 𝚜𝚘 𝚎𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚗𝚊𝚕, 𝚜𝚘 𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚕𝚊𝚜𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚐, 𝚏𝚘𝚛𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛𝚜, 𝚏𝚘𝚛𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛 𝚘𝚞𝚛𝚜. 𝚈𝚘𝚞 𝚊𝚛𝚎 𝚜𝚘 𝚖𝚊𝚗𝚢 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐𝚜 𝚝𝚘 𝚊𝚕𝚕 𝚘𝚏 𝚞𝚜 𝙶𝚊𝚛𝚢. 𝚈𝚘𝚞 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚊𝚕𝚠𝚊𝚢𝚜 𝚋𝚎𝚎𝚗 𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚢𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐 ! 𝚂𝚘 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎𝚍, 𝚜𝚘 𝚊𝚍𝚘𝚛𝚎𝚍... 𝚒 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚜𝚘 𝚖𝚞𝚌𝚑. 𝚡𝚡𝚡𝚡

𝚁𝚎𝚊𝚕 𝙻𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝙿𝚛𝚊𝚢𝚎𝚛

𝙻𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝚒𝚜 𝚙𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚎𝚗𝚝 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚔𝚒𝚗𝚍. 𝙻𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝚒𝚜 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚓𝚎𝚊𝚕𝚘𝚞𝚜 𝚘𝚛 𝚋𝚘𝚊𝚜𝚝𝚏𝚞𝚕 𝚘𝚛 𝚙𝚛𝚘𝚞𝚍 𝚘𝚛 𝚛𝚞𝚍𝚎. 𝙸𝚝 𝚍𝚘𝚎𝚜 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚍𝚎𝚖𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚒𝚝𝚜 𝚘𝚠𝚗 𝚠𝚊𝚢. 𝙸𝚝 𝚒𝚜 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚒𝚛𝚛𝚒𝚝𝚊𝚋𝚕𝚎, 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚒𝚝 𝚔𝚎𝚎𝚙𝚜 𝚗𝚘 𝚛𝚎𝚌𝚘𝚛𝚍 𝚘𝚏 𝚋𝚎𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚠𝚛𝚘𝚗𝚐𝚎𝚍. 𝙸𝚝 𝚍𝚘𝚎𝚜 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚛𝚎𝚓𝚘𝚒𝚌𝚎 𝚊𝚋𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚒𝚗𝚓𝚞𝚜𝚝𝚒𝚌𝚎 𝚋𝚞𝚝 𝚛𝚎𝚓𝚘𝚒𝚌𝚎𝚜 𝚠𝚑𝚎𝚗𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚝𝚛𝚞𝚝𝚑 𝚠𝚒𝚗𝚜 𝚘𝚞𝚝. 𝙻𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝚗𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛 𝚐𝚒𝚟𝚎𝚜 𝚞𝚙, 𝚗𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛 𝚕𝚘𝚜𝚎𝚜 𝚏𝚊𝚒𝚝𝚑, 𝚒𝚜 𝚊𝚕𝚠𝚊𝚢𝚜 𝚑𝚘𝚙𝚎𝚏𝚞𝚕, 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚎𝚗𝚍𝚞𝚛𝚎𝚜 𝚝𝚑𝚛𝚘𝚞𝚐𝚑 𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚢 𝚌𝚒𝚛𝚌𝚞𝚖𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚗𝚌𝚎.

– 𝚂𝚝. 𝙿𝚊𝚞𝚕 𝚝𝚘 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝙲𝚘𝚛𝚒𝚗𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚊𝚗𝚜

𝗜 𝗹𝗼𝘃𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂. 𝗡𝗼𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴, 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗻𝗼𝗯𝗼𝗱𝘆, 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗻 𝘁𝗶𝗺𝗲, 𝘄𝗶𝗹𝗹 𝗰𝗵𝗮𝗻𝗴𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁.

I'm sorry that grief still makes people uncomfortable.

I'm sorry--
Does my grief make you uncomfortable?
Guess what?
Me too.
But my uncomfortable lasts forever,
while yours (probably) lasts
about as long as this sentence does."

I'm sorry if my grief makes you uncomfortable.
I'm sorry if I talk about my loved one too much.
I'm sorry if I post too many pictures.
I'm sorry if I share memories too often.
But wait.
The truth is those memories are all I have left.
So I guess I'm not really
sorry at all.

You DO NOT, hear me cry, nor do 
you see my tears! So, DON'T you or 
anyone else You DO NOT, hear me cry,
nor do pass judgement on me!!! 
" I love Gary with all my heart,"
If that bothers you, then that's 
your problem, NOT MINE!!!
I have a heart!!! 
What's your excuse????

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"To my much missed mother – you were so special to me and even though time has passed it never diminishes your memory and spirit. They live on long after you. Rest in peace."

I couldn't save my mum

Watching someone you love… die? There are no words for how broken that makes a person. It's like waking up from a bad dream only to find out that it's you reality, it's like watching sunlight fade from the sky, like watching death suck the one you love dry, and being powerless to stop it. You may as well try to stop the waves from rolling in, or the sun from rising.In the end, the waves will roll, the sun will set, and death will come. The only thing you have a choice in? How you deal with it…when it does." ? Rachel Van Dyken

Watching my Mom die was the most horrific thing I have ever been through. I love and miss you so much Mom.

The constant hole and ache in my heart for my Mom and the suffering she endured because of dr negligence!!!

I Watched You Suffer I Saw You Die

In tears I saw you sinking, Mom
I watched you fade away –
God alone, knows how I miss you
as it dawns, another day.

Once upon a memory
someone wiped away a tear –
Held me close and loved me
thank you Mother dear.